Kopi atau Milo?

Dasar Manusia Lupa Diri~

2012-01-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

Dah memang lumrah manusia memang selalu lupa x_x

Semoga Allah sentiasa memberi petunjuk agar saya tidak lupa diri lagi.

Walaupun banyak juga perkara yang saya selalu lupa dalam kehidupan seharian, tapi saya sangat terinsaf bila terkenangkan 3 insiden di bawah....

Insiden Pertama:
Kami diberi borang pengemaskinian rekod untuk diisi bagi tahun 2012. Dalam zaman serba canggih ni, saya sungguh tak sangka kami akan diberi borang sedemikian rupa. Bukannya susah pun nak buat borang online *ewah*

Saya adalah sangat sibuk semasa borang diagihkan, jadi tidak berapa fokus semasa mengambil pen untuk mengisi borang tersebut. Oleh kerana sudah terlebih biasa mengisi borang (online mahupun physical), saya pun pantas menulis nama, alamat, nombor telefon, tahun berkhidmat, umur sekarang (borang yang bijak tidak perlu ada column ini :p), status bla bla bla....panjangnya satu muka surat.

Sampailah ke mukasurat seterusnya, di mana saya diminta mengisi maklumat suami/isteri. Tiba-tiba saya jadi blank - "eh, apa status yang aku letak di depan eh?"

Setelah disemak-semak semula...rupa-rupanya saya salah meletak status --> Bujang, dan umur --> 29tahun!

Nasib baik belum submit borang tersebut, tidak kah memalukan bila terang-terangan terisi status Bujang untuk dihantar kepada orang yang baru makan nasi minyak kita?

Sesungguhnya saya tak sedar yang kita berada dalam tahun 2012, dan saya tidak lagi Bujang atau berada dalam umur 20-an!

Such a big difference x_x

Sungguh lupa diri!

Insiden kedua:
Big boss ada bercakap yang dia apabila sudah lama tak membaca al-Quran, menjadi tergagap-gagap membacanya bila mak beliau sakit tenat dulu. Maklumlah, khatam al-Quran kali pertama pada umur 11 tahun, kemudian pegi belajar dapat ijazah sarjana muda, kemudian bekerja dan belajar mendapat ijazah sarjana pula, rasanya dah boleh membaca al-Quran dengan baik selama ni. Kejadian itu benar-benar menyedarkan beliau. Kini beliau dah jadikan membaca al-Quran sebagai amalan seharian.

Saya juga sudah lama tidak membaca al-Quran. Tahun lepas, saya berjanji dengan ayah akan menjadikannya amalan. Dan saya pun ada memulakannya dengan membaca Tafsir Al-Quran cantik yang saya belikan untuk diri sendiri. Tapi selepas sibuk dengan kenaikan pangkat, dan sibuk nak buat persiapan kahwin...dan sibuk berpindah ofis dan meletakkan tafsir al-Quran tu dalam kotak. Saya terlupa nak buka semula kotak tu @_@

Sesungguhnya saya ini hanyalah manusia yang lemah dan sering lupa.

Semalam pula, dalam sejarah - saya lupa bawa pulang handphone dari tempat kerja!

Pertama kali terjadi dalam sejarah hidup saya @_@

Ingat tak post saya di awal tahun yang saya tiada azam tahun ni?

Saya tukar fikiran, saya mahu teruskan azam untuk khatam al-Quran dan membaikpulih minda yang makin lemah lemau ini.

Semoga diberi kekuatan dan keberkatan olehNya.

Ladies Day Out!

2012-01-12T23:57:00.001+08:00

I have this 3 University friend whom I manage to still be in touched with after so many years and tears has passed.

Every now and then, we make some time from our busy life to spend a day out together.

This is good to keep the friendship going, share life stories with friends who supports you, and last but not least makes us feel as young as ever.

The adventures we had many years ago in U feels like it just happened only yesterday when I'm with them. We giggle, gossip, go shopping, take pictures in toilet mirror (tolonglah...ini perbuatan budak remaja saja ok), reminisense of the past and share ourselves during a hearty meal.

I feel like I'm 21 all over again when I'm with them. Its one of those things that makes life sparkles :)

Luckily today, we managed to get a day out from our busy life and spare 4 hours of it wondering around Midvalley-just like when we were in our twenties (ahahaa...this year we will have to say goodbye to our twenties, kan? But no worries, we will always be sixteen at heart!)

I was the one who initiated the email this time. When I proposed the planned, it did not occur to me that 2 of my friends are breastfeeding and would need to pump at some point of the day. Honestly...how insensitive can I be? *sigh*

I'm so sorry...we should've picked an activity that would require less walking. Especially when you're carrying such a heavy object around x_x

But we have fun shopping nontheless and watching the acrobatic show kan? (window shopping mostly and the show was only 5 minutes or so)

Next time hopefully, we can organize a much more personal or at home outing to accomodate the 3 babies which have join our little group ya ;)

Its less fun without them.

I love the ambience in the Garden Lifestyle Store & Cafe, but unfortunately after having the yummy Barramundi fish I had a little stomach discomfort x_x

But based on the taste - I would definitely recommend the menu for the fish lovers.

Maybe I'm still recovering from the recent "accident" so my stomach is a bit sensitive.

Thank you so much for the time ladies~

And not to forget - I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE IKEA GIFT VOUCHER!

Its totally great and I wasn't expecting the amount $_$

Hopefully Mr. T is up for a little shopping in IKEA soon~

Looking forward to a more fun adventure in the future. May our friendship last forever.

-xoxo-

Snappy snap snap...

2012-01-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to have a DSLR as one of my gadget collection, but there were some reasons to why I never bought one.

....I cannot carry the weight (*damsel in distress mode*)
....I can only take photos using the auto setting and ~~malas~~ will need to put effort to learn more technics if I wanted to fully utilize it.
....I don't want to spend my money on something that I do not use ~~anymore~~
....I don't like taking pictures as much as being in one :p

But still...deep down, having such a camera would be convenient especially when you want to record moments that your normal digital camera could not capture.

So I bought one for Mr. T as a wedding gift. The Olympus Pen 3PL.

It's not really a DSLR per se but it has the features of it with a more amateur friendly approach, yet at the same time it also stores the same function as a DSLR.

Mr. T and I (mostly Mr. T) made some research on which camera he finds best suit our need and can be handle well, so after a few ~~hundreds~~ times of shop browsing, we finally settled for this one.

Why did I bought it for Mr. T and not ask Mr. T bought it for me?

....because he is a strong man and he can carry the weight of the camera. *bodek*
....he likes learning new stuff and I know that he can digest all the techy knowledge way better than me.
....finally, I have the reason to purchase it :)
....now I got someone to capture my pictures with it ;)

I know the DSLR will be in good hands :)

Some aunties questioned my decision to spend a lot on the wedding gift as they know that we are in the midst of moving into a new house. That too will cost a lot!

But wedding is a one in a lifetime event (for most of us and hopefully for me too), therefore I would not want to give up such a special gift for the event to make way for our home project.

Mr. T and I have agreed that we will take the home project slow and steady - savour the moment~

Now I'm focussing on spending my budget on the house. Need to finalize many things to buy...owh there goes my $_$

Bye bye 2011...welcome 2012

2011-12-31T23:55:00.003+08:00

Hey there~

Its 10 minutes to midnite and guess what I'm doing right now? (sambil update blog)

Watching a game of Chelsea vs. Aston Villa!

Never has this been done over my 29 years of existence. Of course the first 10 years of my life we did not celebrate New Year (my original parents were a boring couple :p), but after my parents divorced, and I was left to take care of the little siblings, my sister and I always come up with a new year ritual of watching dedications on TV together and shout HAPPY NEW YEAR when the clock strikes 12midnite. We were so happy to see the fireworks!- those wonderful years.

Anyway, back to the present.

This year, again was something new to me (I do hope that this would not be a ritual with Mr. T and I as I am not a football fan!)..sitting infront of the tv with Mr. T's family watching the game, FIL excluded because like me, he is not a fan either.

I took out the Chelsea jersey that I bought to ~~mengurat~~ root for Mr. T and also to accomodate an event. To date, this is my first footbal club jersey and this is my 3rd time wearing it since I bought it the first time.

Source

What a way to celebrate new year as a wife but be supportive of the husband's hobby, right? Right! (*yawn*)

Haha..

2011 - what a wonderful year :)

I am so happy with 2011 that I have no 2012 resolution, boleh?

Thank you Allah for making 2011 so meaningful! Sungguh hebat rahmat yang dirahmati, kuat juga dugaan yang diberi.

Hopefully in 2012 Allah would enlighten us with more blessings and strenght to fight evil-Ameen~

May he give us his guidance~

How to plan a wedding in less than 5 months?

2011-12-29T23:55:00.004+08:00

That was the question I asked Mr. T when he proposed the date - 20.11.2011.

I know its a beautiful date and totally a number to remember (just like I wished for), but finding out that we will be married on the date with less than 5 months to go nearly gave me a heart attack~

I've never been into weddings. Althought I love going to the elaborated events and organizing dinner parties, wedding have never been my thing. I was hoping that when my time comes, my baby sister would be able to help me through since this was her forte'.

Unfortunately she was gone before my wedding, but I was glad that she left me with a Wedding Magazine which has a list of task/checklist to guide me through my wedding planning. (Thank you dear, I hope you're doing ok out there)

So...back to the question -

How to plan a wedding, a solemnization ceremony and an engagement event all within 5 months?

Here is my version of the checklist:

Identify Event & Theme:
+ Engagement Date, Time & Theme.
+ Solemnization Date, Time & Theme.
+ Reception Date, Time & Theme.
++ with this, you would also need to identify suppliers for flowers, food, tent and venue. List them first, so you would not forget.

Once we have confirmed the bigger picture as above, what we need to do is:

Planning for the Engagement Party:
1. Book Caterer/Confirm Menu with Cook (in my case, the Chief Cook would be my aunt)
2. Choose the Engagement Dress
3. Choose the Engagement Dais
4. Choose the Make Up Artist
5. Choose Photographer
6. Make the bookings for item 3-5
7. Buy gifts/hantaran for the groom to be
8. Buy decorations for dulang hantaran
9. Buy/make doorgifts for guess
10. Manicure is a must! The attention of the day will also be on your hands!

Planning for the Solemnization Ceremony:
1. Fill up & prepare necessary form
2. Attend the course
3. Take HIV Test
4. Book the Qadi (Date & Time)
5. Choose Wedding Dress
6. Choose Wedding Dais
7. Choose Wedding Make Up Artist
8. Make bookings for item 5-7
9. Book a photographer
10. Book a videographer
11. Book Caterer/Confirm Menu
12. Buy gifts/hantaran for the groom to be
13. Buy decorations for dulang hantaran
14. Buy/make doorgifts for guess
15. Spa & beauty salon session

Planning for the Wedding Reception:
1. Choose Event Venue
2. Choose Caterer
3. Choose Event Organizer
4. Choose Wedding Dress
5. Choose Photographer
6. Choose Videographer
7. Buy doorgift
8. Confirm item 1-6
9. Book wedding invitation card
10. Finalize wedding invitation list
11. Send wedding invitation

Nice checklist, right? But did everything goes as planned?

Here's what really happened in reality:

Honestly I am lucky that I had the basics right, but organizing events are always chaotic...especially if you're the bride and wants everything to be perfect but has a problem of procrastination and Ally McBeal day dream symptom!

I made bookings for Venue, Wedding Organizer, and Caterer prior to the engagement and I made all the necessary bookings for engagement quite accordingly as well. This was all planned well 2-3 weeks after the event. Although I had some hiccups with the engagement dress at the very last minute...but it turned out ok. So I was pretty sure I would do well for my solemnization as well.

After the engagement, we had a wonderful prewedding photoshoot session and in the next 2 weeks I totally forgot to prepare for my solemnization event which is just 7-8 weeks to go. I was trying to cherrish the moment of being engaged that I totally let loose and ignore the solemnization ceremony preparation!

I thought that I had plenty of time.

The anxiety attack came when my uncle took me to collect the Nikah Form. I realized that I have yet to get the needed signature for my wali, retake the Nikah Course Certificate and HIV test. This would all take about 2-3 weeks to complete because we need to make appointment with my dad (urghh..the drama king), the qadi, the clinic and attend the course to get the certificate.

Then another attack came when we attended the course where we were informed that the Groom will have to submit his form, 2 weeks prior to the bride to ensure that the Pejabat Agama from his district approved his form. Only after the approval then can I submit my form and book the Qadi. We had approximately 6 weeks to go, and I nearly cried!

But Allah was on our side, eventhough we did it quite the very last minute, we managed to have all the forms completed within 3 weeks. (Just 2 weeks before the solemnization ceremony)

Summary of what really happen in the past 6 months:

My advise to all Bride & Groom to be (based on personal experience):

1. Please prioritize your application form before you make the other necessary bookings.

2. It is also important to book the venue for reception prior to choosing the dates since most of the wedding venues are fully booked (especially during school holidays) one year before the date!

3. Be happy and flexible, we can always plan, but the masterplan comes from Allah. Don't be stressed about the small stuff such as flower arrangements etc. Nothing can be perfect if you only see the flaw in it. Just move forward and look at the bigger picture - you're getting married! ^_^

4. Pray to Allah for guidance and ease.

and Thank you Allah for such a wonderful experience!

Alhamdulillah~

The trials and events before the BIG DAY! (Part 2)

2011-12-28T00:48:00.003+08:00

The beautiful engagement event went quite smoothly, and we only have exactly 2 months (9 weeks) to go before the solemnization event.

Tick tock tick tock...clock is ticking.

At first we thought that 2 months would be plenty of time since we've booked mostly everything for the reception event in my hometown, but weeks went by so quickly. It was when we had less than 7 weeks left to the event that I realized that we have yet to finalized on a lot of paperwork!

A lot here means - ZERO.

Yes, we did not even collected the borang Akad Nikah yet at the time.

My uncle was the one who wanted to help on the solemnization paperwork. He is 70 years old and sometimes, although he doesn't want to admit it - he forgets. I've reminded him many times that I wanted to have our event 20.11.2011 so that he needs to book the Qadi's date & time, and he failed to advised us on the paperwork involve to do so x_x

Breathe in breathe out - do not panic Cik Kopi~

1. We need to retake our Kursus Kahwin as the one that we have is more than 2 years.
2. We need to get the HIV test.
3. We need to get the Borang Akuan Bujang ready.
4. Last but not least (literally) - We need to get Wakalah Wali from my biological father.

It was quite (how to describe this nicely?) alarming that we might not get the date at first :(

I reminded myself not to be a bridezilla and yell at everyone to death. Instead, I took matters into hand and started to work with Mr. T to ensure we made all the necessary arrangement. Mr. T helped to tame the godzilla in me very well...I was so nice to almost everyone during the 7-8 weeks period which was so amazing ^_^

Happy people and positive working environment has lead to a dream-come-true event ^_^

Alhamdulillah~

But as I mentioned earlier...I NEARLY gave in to Bridezilla to surface..It was the 7 most adrenalin jumping and full of suspense of my life. I was worried that the event would not be ready on time until I forgot to be worried about changing my single status hood for good!

The Kursus Kahwin
I've attended once in 2008 with my sister when she wanted to get married as Mr. T had taken his earlier in 2007.

My uncle advised us to retake the course as advised by the then Qadi. To avoid delay in paperwork, we decided to take the course 6 weeks prior to the event. Not wanting to sit on uncomfortable chairs, and not wanting to be stress if Mr. T shows up late for the course since he is all the way from Bangi, I decided to take the course at Al-Shahir's Management in Putrajaya.

The plus side: The course was conducted in a very spacious and professional lecture room with very comfortable chairs, and the learning environment is extremely nice. The certificate can be ready within a week.

The negative point: The food sucks! Luckily the food is served in the cafe area where other stalls are open, so we get to buy extra food to suite our taste.

It was during this course that we found out that we needed at least 2 months to get all the paperwork ready. I was already panicking in the comfortable chair as Mr. T and I had less than 2 months to prepare all this :(

You see, after you have taken this course, you will need to get the HIV test done. It is not easy to booked an appointment to get the HIV test. You need at least 1 month before submitting the forms for the local Qadi to approve the Groom, before submitting the approval on the Bride's side.

All and all, the process might take up to 3 weeks!

Let see..at that time we had less than 7 weeks to go. To get the certificate = 1 week. To get the HIV test = immediate but need to book slot, which at that time was ultimately full!

To get the Qadi on the Groom side to approve = 3-4 days. To get the Qadi from the Bride side to approve = 3-4 days. This may even take 2 weeks! Then only can we book the date for Akad Nikah.

There was a lot of holidays during the time and I was so worried that we did not have time to submit the paperwork : (

The HIV Test

We searched for the nearest Klinik Kesihatan to perform the test and guess what? All of them are fully booked until December x_x

Luckily one of Mr. T's friend is also getting married during the same month and he advised us to called up the klinik in Sepang to book for a date. This was the only klinik with availability within 3 weeks from our solemnization date, so we booked it and went all the way there to have the test.

Our appointment was supposed to be at two. I was so anxious to get my blood taken. I was scared that I'll faint and create a scene there :p

We reached there before 2pm and fill up the necessary form. It was not until 2:45pm that my name was called. I went it the room alone...gave my left hand to the nurse and tried my best possible not to look at the blood sucking shringe sticking on my hand. After she took my blood, I had to fill up 2 forms - one is a questionaire to check whether we have history of diseases, but I can't remember. I waited a while longer to submit the form and have my result read to me. Mr. T was 15 minutes later than mine as the nurse had to treat a baby who came in just right after we registered our turn. We manage to get our result by 4:15pm. Not bad service for a government clinic.

I was so happy to get the result and forgot all about fainting!

The Borang Akuan Bujang

This form is always readily available in my laptop as I signed many of these for my staff this year. There has been nearly 10 forms signed this year alone.

So it should be no problem for me right?

Wrong!

2 weeks before the event, I managed to loose this signed form and could not get a replacement because of the printer in office got stuck for a week and my boss is no where to be found x_x

Why - why - why - I wonder...I was so unorganized those weeks (and have yet to put myself together still)

Luckily Mr. T was there to help. He printed the form and get his boss to sign it for me - phew**

All at the very last minute!

Thanks luv~ :*

The Wakalah Wali

This form is appended with the Borang Nikah for cases where the bride's father could not be her Wali (the legal guardian who would gave the bride's hand in marriage during the solemnization ceremony). There are other list of possible Wali for me but since my dad is pretty much alive, so we decided to do the right thing and get his permission to get married.

This decision was of course opposed many times by my family. My father is not the kind of person who gave anything without a "price". He just likes the drama. So I waited nearly to the last minute to get his involvement but was so surprised that he reacted positively to sign the papers.

We managed to get his signature 5 weeks before the event, but Allah wanted to test us again. The original Qadi got sicked at the very last minute and we had to get another Qadi to sign the wakalah 2 weeks before the event. I was dismayed. Honestly- I don't think I can handle anymore drama at the time...

Getting the second Qadi turns out to be another real challenge too, with only 2 weeks left, we had difficulty booking an appointment to get his approval. He was the kind of person who goes exactly by the book therefore he wanted to have another signature session with my father. This time more formally and with all the paperwork ready.

I was on the verge of panicking. It was already a big sacrifice (for me) getting my father to come the first time, now I had to be nice again and invite him the second time. I was praying to Allah so much to ease the process and let him come without any drama or demands. To my surprised, Allah granted me my wish and he came on the said date & time, exactly 11 days before the solemnization date to re-sign those papers.

Alhamdulillah - praise to Allah~

We managed to book the date & time with this second Qadi, so with only about 10 days to go, I started to prepare my solemnization event. Barulah ada semangat~

I paid the Dress, the Dais, the Makeup Artist, the videographer and photographer all within the week before the event. It was a bit of a rushed but luckily, all of them are still available on the dates.

Some of my friends offered to help, but since it was mostly quite last minute (I put everything on hold to avoid loosing my deposit when I got the news of the 1st Qadi being sick - in case the second Qadi could not make the date :p), so I couldn't segregate the work accordingly. Luckily my loved ones are there to help me through :)

The trials and events before the BIG DAY!

2011-12-21T15:22:00.001+08:00

This is a backdated post. I didn't want to post it earlier because I was a bit scared things would not go according to plan :p

But Alhamdulillah~ we have completed all our events ~~grandiosely~~ accordingly and Mr. T & I have been blissfully married for a month now.

Still, I would like to post the experience endured during the days before I officially became Mrs. T so that I can look back and savor the moment again :)

Good things seldomly come easy~

A tragedy happened in my family in June 2011, and I lost someone dear to me. I'm not sure whether we have lost her for good or Allah is just testing us to see how strong we are as a family. It was heartbreaking :(

At the same time, Mr. T and I have arranged a family get to know mid June, just before the tragedy strike. I was a bit confused whether to proceed or put the plan on hold at the time. So things were a bit chaotic and unorganized.

But my parents were quite eager to meet Mr. T's parents and get to know them better before Mr. T's family(this is to avoid the same tragedy from happening twice - kasihan my parents, the tragedy left them quite traumatize to judge people, furthermore, my mother's health have been badly affected by it), so we proceeded with the get to know session in mid June.

It was quite disastrous-honestly @_@

Major misscommunication happened during the event and it has dampen my mood for a whole week. But I'm not the kind of person that would be sober for so long. If things were meant to be, then there's no reason to not to put an effort to it. Even if it is not meant to be...at least I will not regret not trying. The experience does matter!

We managed to do that in another formal get to know session a month later. Mr. T came again with his family and they brought a ring to "seal the deal" and we had a very smooth Majlis Merisik. I'll write in a different post on how we found the ring~

The blissful month of Ramadhan was just around the corner at the time and since I was already "engaged" to a project that will need my commitment until middle of August plus Mr. T and I have yet to purchase all the necessity, so we decided to held our engagement one day after the 1Malaysia Public Holiday which falls on 17th September 2011 (18 Syawal).

I honestly did not plan to have a separated engagement event (originally we wanted to be engage in the morning and bernikah in the evening), but I was so glad I decided to go through with it. It was a wonderful experience ^_^
....tbc....

I'm not single anymore~

2011-11-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah~

With just one lafaz at 11:20am yesterday, I am no longer single :p

Mr. T was just so excited himself. It showed~

After nearly 4 years of waiting, we are now truly official :)

Thank you sooooooo much for those who came and supported us and sent their prayers!

It was such a beautiful event. I am so blessed to be surrounded by loved ones.

But how I wish some of my other loved ones were there as well. My darling Aan Andes and Emielia is in confinement.

But of all the missing - I miss my baby sister so much! If you're reading this...please know that we love you so much and will always be waiting for you to come home safely to us.

What I manage to do before the big event~

2011-11-17T00:52:00.003+08:00

There's still some time left before I take a long week vacation to prepare for my big day.

Eventhough I had everything planned and prepared earlier, there are a few last minute hiccups that needs to be resolved, not to forget juggling my new job @_@

With such a busy schedule, I find it hard to get some alone time with myself lately...

(Not that I'm complaining on the company and attention given ^_^ )

Today, I finally had some time to spare...so I decided to get myself a ~~hairspa~~ haircut!

This haircut is long due and who knows when I will get another chance at it again. So, I drove like crazy just to make sure I can make it on time to the saloon. It has been ages since I last drive, so it felt a bit odd. Luckily when I got there, all the other customers has gone - and I have the place all to myself~

I'm glad I was able to do it before the big day. New hair style for a new lifestyle~ ;)
But, I didn't get to go to any spa tho :(

I planned with some friends but we were too occupied with our activities that the time simply slips away. And some of my best friends are occupied with other commitments...so its was not a doable activity anyway.

I was traumatized to go to a spa alone.

I used to love spa...but eversince I got tricked into spending almost RM2k for spa last year, I never again went to any.

It was a burden trying to finished up the RM2k package while they keep pushing you to buy some more stuff...pfffttt..

All I need to make sure is that I eat right, get enough of my beauty sleep, scrub myself with whatever lulur I have, sapu BioOil everyday and pray for the best~

Wish me luck :)

p/s: today is our 2nd month Anniversary of being school uniform models ;) ... this Anniversary will end soon with another Anniversary to look forward to each year and hopefully for many more years to come.

2 weeks and 6 days to go...

2011-10-31T21:25:00.001+08:00

Dup dap dup dap dup dap....

October 2011~

2011-10-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

Mr. T and I are very busy browsing...

Loads of Ratu Sehari...

and Home Decor websites

and last but not least....

the all time favorite book...

With only a few more weeks left for us to convert ourselves from single to double, we are swarmed with not only office work..but also living our long lost dream as a part time interior designer and wedding planner.

I've never been so blissfully happy being busy in my entire life!

^_^

Mixed feelings~

2011-09-30T18:31:00.001+08:00

I am happy to finally got the transfer I wanted (and needed because I don't feel safe here)...but I am feeling so sorry to have to leave some people behind.

I am glad that some people recognized my talent...but I am afraid I might dissappoint them.

I am excited about the preparation...but I am also feeling scared that I might have gone overboard x_x

I need to sit down and drink a cup of coffee to calm me down~

Where's my checklist?

2011-09-13T08:45:00.001+08:00

Who knew that being a school uniform model would needs a lot of work?

I had a teribble weekend. A major tooth ache cost me my beauty sleep, but the best part of it is it made me thinner!

I honestly need to loose weight for this weekend's event.

There's a couple of outstanding item that needs to be done before the big day, so I foresee that this will be a hectic week @_@

Apart from the butterflies running around in my stomach, office stress is also inflating me with acids.

Matilah kembong perut dengan menda yang bukan-bukan...

I am so upset with the way things are turning out at work but on the positive side...I've got another offer and am going to take it as soon as possible. There are a few paperwork that needs to be completed.

I need to go thru all my checklist again.

Wish me luck!

Banyak betul hidangan lazat di hari raya...tapi...

2011-09-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

saya ada kurang dari 14 hari lagi sebelum perlu menghadiri sesi photography yang memerlukan saya menjadi model baju sekolah yang kurus!

Macam mana ni? Cabaran sungguh~

Setakat ini saya berjaya menurun kan beberapa kilo (setelah menimbang berat tadi, dapat turun 2.5kg). Cabarannya ialah nak mengekalkan berat badan ~~yang ideal~~ ini selama 2 minggu.

Banyak sungguh makanan lazat yang terhidang selama seminggu beraya di kampung halaman.

Tahun ni saya berjaya menyiapkan ayam masak merah bagi melengkapi nasi tomato mak yang lazat tanpa bantuan tambahan.

Potato salad yang menjadi signature dish saya saban tahun juga tidak ketinggalan dalam menu hidangan rumah terbuka.

Ada kek coklat lagi untuk meraikan double birthday celebration.

Mak juga memenuhi permintaan untuk ketam masak merah, asam pedas ikan pari serta kari daging yang sangat lazat. Manalah boleh sy elakkan diri dari makan semua makanan favorite saya ni?

Ayah juga terpaksa berkorban beratur selama 45minit untuk dapatkan saya nasi kandar yang lazat. Huu~ maafkan saya ayah!

Sungguh puas hati dapat merasa makanan kegemaran, cuma tidak puas kerana tidak dapat banyak baaaaaaaaaaanyak kali seperti selalu!

Sabar sabar...

p/s: Gambar tidak dapat disertakan bagi mengelakkan keterliuran yang melampau kerana penulis sudahpun berasa sangat lapar dengan membaca tulisan sendiri saja.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

.:: MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN ::.

Ramadhan tinggal berapa hari lagi saja nih...

2011-08-24T13:46:00.000+08:00

Gambaran Hari Kiamat

✐ Selepas Malaikat Israfil meniup sangkakala (bentuknya seperti tanduk besar) yang memekakkan telinga, seluruh makhluk mati kecuali Izrail & beberapa malaikat yang lain. Selepas itu, Izrail pun mencabut nyawa malaikat yang tinggal dan akhirnya nyawanya sendiri.
✐ Selepas semua makhluk mati, Tuhan pun berfirman mafhumnya “Kepunyaan siapakah kerajaan hari ini?” Tiada siapa yang menjawab. Lalu Dia sendiri menjawab dengan keagunganNya “Kepunyaan Allah Yang Maha Esa lagi Maha Perkasa.” Ini menunjukkan kebesaran & keagunganNya sebagai Tuhan yg Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Kekal Hidup, tidak mati.
✐ Selepas 40 tahun, Malaikat Israfil a.s. dihidupkan, seterusnya meniup sangkakala untuk kali ke-2, lantas seluruh makhluk hidup semula di atas bumi putih, berupa padang Mahsyar (umpama padang Arafah) yang rata tidak berbukit atau bulat seperti bumi.

✐ Sekelian manusia hidup melalui benih anak Adam yg disebut “Ajbuz Zanbi” yang berada di hujung tulang belakang mereka. Hiduplah manusia umpama anak pokok yang kembang membesar dari biji benih.
✐ Semua manusia dan jin dibangkitkan dalam keadaan telanjang dan hina. Mereka tidak rasa malu kerana pada ketika itu hati mereka sangat takut dan bimbang tentang nasib & masa depan yang akan mereka hadapi kelak.

✐ Lalu datanglah api yang berterbangan dengan bunyi seperti guruh yang menghalau manusia, jin dan binatang ke tempat perhimpunan besar. Bergeraklah mereka menggunakan tunggangan (bagi yang banyak amal), berjalan kaki (bagi yang kurang amalan) dan berjalan dengan muka (bagi yang banyak dosa). Ketika itu, ibu akan lupakan anak, suami akan lupakan isteri, setiap manusia sibuk memikirkan nasib mereka.

✐ Setelah semua makhluk dikumpulkan, matahari dan bulan dihapuskan cahayanya, lalu mereka tinggal dalam kegelapan tanpa cahaya. Berlakulah huru-hara yang amat dahsyat.

✐ Tiba-tiba langit yang tebal pecah dengan bunyi yang dahsyat, lalu turunlah malaikat sambil bertasbih kepada Allah SWT. Seluruh makhluk terkejut melihat saiz malaikat yang besar dan suaranya yang menakutkan.
✐ Kemudian matahari muncul semula dengan kepanasan yang berganda. Hingga dirasakan seakan-akan matahari berada sejengkal dari atas kepala mereka. Ulama berkata jika matahari naik di bumi seperti keadaannya naik dihari Kiamat nescaya seluruh bumi terbakar, bukit-bukau hancur dan sungai menjadi kering. Lalu mereka rasai kepanasan dan bermandikan peluh sehingga peluh mereka menjadi lautan. Timbul atau tenggelam mereka bergantung pada amalan masing-masing. Keadaan mereka berlanjutan sehingga 1000 tahun.
✐ Terdapat satu telaga kepunyaan Nabi Muhammad SAW bernama Al-Kausar yang mengandungi air yang hanya dapat diminum oleh orang mukmin sahaja. Orang bukan mukmin akan dihalau oleh malaikat yang menjaganya. Jika diminum airnya tidak akan haus selama-lamanya. Kolam ini berbentuk segi empat tepat sebesar satu bulan perjalanan. Bau air kolam ini lebih harum dari kasturi, warnanya lebih putih dari susu dan rasanya lebih sejuk dari embun. Ia mempunyai saluran yang mengalir dari syurga.

✐ Semua makhluk berada bawah cahaya matahari yang terik kecuali 7 golongan yang mendapat teduhan dari Arasy. Mereka ialah:
ⅰ- Pemimpin yang adil.
ⅱ- Orang muda yang taat kepada perintah Allah.
ⅲ- Lelaki yang terikat hatinya dengan masjid.
ⅳ- Dua orang yang bertemu kerana Allah dan berpisah kerana Allah.
ⅴ- Lelaki yang diajak oleh wanita berzina, tetapi dia menolak dengan berkata “Aku takut pada Allah”.
ⅵ- Lelaki yg bersedekah dengan bersembunyi (tidak diketahui orang ramai).
vii.Lelaki yang suka bersendirian mengingati Allah lalu mengalir air matanya kerana takutkan Allah.
✐ Oleh kerana tersangat lama menunggu di padang mahsyar, semua manusia tidak tahu berbuat apa melainkan mereka yang beriman, kemudian mereka terdengar suara “pergilah berjumpa dengan para Nabi”. Maka mereka pun pergi mencari para Nabi. Pertama sekali kumpulan manusia ini berjumpa dengan Nabi Adam tetapi usaha mereka gagal kerana Nabi Adam a.s menyatakan beliau juga ada melakukan kesalahan dengan Allah SWT. Maka kumpulan besar itu kemudiannya berjumpa Nabi Nuh a.s., Nabi Ibrahim a.s., Nabi Musa a.s., Nabi Isa a.s. (semuanya memberikan sebab seperti Nabi Adam a.s.) dan akhirnya mereka berjumpa Rasullullah SAW. Jarak masa antara satu nabi dengan yang lain adalah 1000 tahun perjalanan.

✐ Lalu berdoalah baginda Nabi Muhammad SAW ke hadrat Allah SWT. Lalu diperkenankan doa baginda.

✐ Selepas itu, terdengar bunyi pukulan gendang yang kuat hingga menakutkan hati semua makhluk kerana mereka sangka azab akan turun. Lalu terbelah langit, turunlah arasy Tuhan yang dipikul oleh 8 orang malaikat yang sangat besar (besarnya sejarak perjalanan 20 ribu tahun) sambil bertasbih dengan suara yang amat kuat sehingga ‘Arasy itu tiba dibumi.

✐ ‘Arasy ialah jisim nurani yang amat besar berbentuk kubah (bumbung bulat) yang mempunyai 4 batang tiang yang sentiasa dipikul oleh 4 orang malaikat yang besar dan gagah. Dalam bahasa mudah ia seumpama istana yang mempunyai seribu bilik yang menempatkan jutaan malaikat di dalamnya. Ia dilingkungi embun yang menghijab cahayanya yang sangat kuat.

✐ Kursi iaitu jisim nurani yang terletak di hadapan Arasy yang dipikul oleh 4 orang malaikat yang sangat besar. Saiz kursi lebih kecil dari ‘Arasy umpama cincin ditengah padang . Dalam bahasa mudah ia umpama singgahsana yang terletak dihadapan istana.

✐ Seluruh makhluk pun menundukkan kepala kerana takut. Lalu dimulakan timbangan amal. Ketika itu berterbanganlah kitab amalan masing-masing turun dari bawah Arasy menuju ke leher pemiliknya tanpa silap dan tergantunglah ia sehingga mereka dipanggil untuk dihisab. Kitab amalan ini telah ditulis oleh malaikat Hafazhah / Raqib & ‘Atid / Kiraman Katibin.

✐ Manusia beratur dalam saf mengikut Nabi dan pemimpin masing- masing. Orang kafir & munafik beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim. Setiap pengikut ada tanda mereka tersendiri untuk dibezakan.

✐ Umat yang pertama kali dihisab adalah umat Nabi Muhammad SAW, dan amalan yang pertama kali dihisab adalah solat. Sedangkan hukum yang pertama kali diputuskan adalah perkara pertumpahan darah.

✐ Apabila tiba giliran seseorang hendak dihisab amalannya, malaikat akan mencabut kitab mereka lalu diserahkan, lalu pemiliknya mengambil dengan tangan kanan bagi orang mukmin dan dengan tangan kiri jika orang bukan mukmin

✐ Semua makhluk akan dihisab amalan mereka menggunakan satu Neraca Timbangan. Saiznya amat besar, mempunyai satu tiang yang mempunyai lidah dan 2 daun. Daun yang bercahaya untuk menimbang pahala dan yang gelap untuk menimbang dosa.

✐ Acara ini disaksikan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW dan para imam 4 mazhab untuk menyaksikan pengikut masing-masing dihisab.

✐ Perkara pertama yang diminta ialah Islam. Jika dia bukan Islam, maka seluruh amalan baiknya tidak ditimbang bahkan amalan buruk tetap akan ditimbang.

✐ Ketika dihisab, mulut manusia akan dipateri, tangan akan berkata- kata, kaki akan menjadi saksi. Tiada dolak-dalih dan hujah tipuan. Semua akan di adili oleh Allah Ta’ala dengan Maha Bijaksana.

✐ Setelah amalan ditimbang, mahkamah Mahsyar dibuka kepada orang ramai untuk menuntut hak masing-masing dari makhluk yang sedang dibicara sehinggalah seluruh makhluk berpuas hati dan dibenarkannya menyeberangi titian sirat.

✐ Syafaat Nabi Muhammad SAW di akhirat :

ⅰ- Meringankan penderitaan makhluk di Padang Mahsyar dengan mempercepatkan hisab.
ⅱ- Memasukkan manusia ke dalam syurga tanpa hisab.
ⅲ- Mengeluarkan manusia yang mempunyai iman sebesar zarah dari neraka.
(Semua syafaat ini tertakluk kepada keizinan Allah SWT.)

✐ Para nabi dan rasul serta golongan khawas juga diberikan izin oleh Tuhan untuk memberi syafaat kepada para pengikut mereka. Mereka ini berjumlah 70 000. Setiap seorang dari mereka akan mensyafaatkan 70 000 orang yang lain.

✐ Setelah berjaya dihisab, manusia akan mula berjalan menuju syurga melintasi jambatan sirat. Siratul Mustaqim ialah jambatan (titian) yang terbentang dibawahnya neraka. Lebar jambatan ini adalah seperti sehelai rambut yang dibelah tujuh dan ia lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Bagi orang mukmin ia akan dilebarkan dan dimudahkan menyeberanginya.

✐ Fudhail bin Iyadh berkata perjalanan di Sirat memakan masa 15000 tahun. 5000 tahun menaik, 5000 tahun mendatar dan 5000 tahun menurun. Ada makhluk yang melintasinya seperti kilat, seperti angin, menunggang binatang korban dan berjalan kaki. Ada yang tidak dapat melepasinya disebabkan api neraka sentiasa menarik kaki mereka, lalu mereka jatuh ke dalamnya.

✐ Para malaikat berdiri di kanan dan kiri sirat mengawasi setiap makhluk yang lalu. Setiap 1000 orang yang meniti sirat, hanya seorang sahaja yang Berjaya melepasinya. 999 orang akan terjatuh ke dalam neraka.
Rujukan: Kitab Aqidatun Najin karangan Syeikh Zainal Abidin Muhammad Al- Fathani. Pustaka Nasional Singapura 2004.

☞ Jika sekiranya kalian ingin mengumpul saham akhirat, sampaikanlah ilmu ini kepada sahabat² yang lain. Sepertimana sabda Rasulullah SAW: ❝ Sampaikanlah pesananku walaupun satu ayat. ❞ Sesungguhnya apabila matinya seseorang anak Adam itu, hanya 3 perkara yang akan dibawanya bersama :

① Sedekah/amal jariahnya.
② Doa anak²nya yang soleh.
③ Ilmu yang bermanfaat yang disampaikannya kepada orang lain.

The hunt for Gingy~

2011-08-08T23:10:00.003+08:00

Once Upon a time...When I was a little girl, my great grandmother has always served gingerbread cookies for tea. (Which I just found out today that most of the other family members did not like it)

I always savour the thick ginger scent in my mounth and let it melt before I take another bite. I love gingerbread cookies. The taste brings good memories and its delicious!

So a few months ago, the memory struck me again and so, whenever I went to a grocery store I will always look at the cookies area hoping to find Gingy.

Finally a few days ago...I found it!

We were at the Mark & Spencer, KLCC contemplating to buy 4 socks that cost RM90.00! when I saw the Home to Food section in M&S. I was called to explore this little section which I have never been in before...with me was Mr. T, giving me strenght and support to venture into the section.

So in I go with a little nudge from Mr. T and there it was, sitting at the last row, was an array of choices of Gingerbread cookies!

I was so excited (mesti pembeli lain hairan kenapalah perempuan ni enthusiastic tengok gingerbread cookies), and started to choose. But this one caught my gingy eyes~

Little Gingys in a red box.

Since it is the smallest of the packages, I decided to buy it for taste.

I look for the halal stamp, but it has none except for the vegetarian symbol, and so I vet thru the ingredients further and find.it edible. So I quickly went to the counter and paid for it. It cost about RM11.00.

And the time has come to meet Gingy (individually)...

Isn't he cute? All smile and joy~

Gingy's texture is not too thick or too thin.

Have a bite (and I make it a quick kill).

And the verdict is ---> YUMMY! This is the one for me. It has a mild ginger taste rather the ones that I had when I was a little girl, but its buttery taste enhances the gingy and made it the best ginger bread I ever had in years.

I hope I can manage to pack some for my trip back home at the end of this month. I would surely like for my mother to taste it. Brings back good old memories of happily ever after ^_^

Ujian di bulan Ramadhan~

2011-08-04T09:44:00.000+08:00

It was the 3rd day of Ramadhan, and my first day of work in Ramadhan (I had to take 2 days MC due to severe headache huu~)

I could not sleep a wink the night before.

Even when I managed to fell asleep at 2:30am and wake up at 3:45am I had the weirdest and longest dream ever. It's an anime movie dream, which I think is quite cool and creepy at the same time. Talking Carl was part of the dream.

But the funny thing is, despite all this. I was wide awake and was not feeling sleepy at all the whole day!

I reached the office as early as 6:50am since I had nothing better to do at home and was hoping to start my day with clear justification on my new work scope. Yes, I have been moved to a new department middle of July but unfortunately the management has yet to decide on what my new role should be and who to take my previous role (which is a vital one to the office since it plays a big role in ensuring revenue to the company).

Honestly I was quite frustrated to be taking the new post. I just don't feel comfortable working with people who ~~don't mind cheating company figures to achieve their target~~ does not share the same moral compass as I do. I mean this people will give you a weird look if you say you have just came back from a concert instead of a Ceramah session but don't mind not doing their work in accordance to Islamic teachings in order to show that they can achieve any target given.

So FAKE!

That must have been what triggers the headache. I seldomly take sick leave as I enjoy my work and look forward to going to office everyday. Thank you management, your decision has taken my happiness away. Thank you so much, you're such a brilliant group of people.

When office starts at 7:30am, I received a call to represent my boss to a meeting at 8:00am. Since I have nothing much to do (honestly said), I went to the meeting, and guess what? All the top management are there and we (the small management) are sent to listen as they plan their master strategy ~~to take over the world~~ for next year's projection. *yawn*

It was a one day meeting! *double yawn*

My previous management never put us up to this, they would plan and deliberate among them and call us for a discussion (and not let us sit like dummies) to finalized next year's action plan. And this people are actual geniuses whose ideas are so colourful, you would want to hear it first hand.

I was so depressed! So, to ensure I do not fell asleep listening to "genius" talking, I spent the whole day yesterday updating my resume! and later applying jobs online :p

Maybe it was a sign from Allah for me to move on to a greener pasture and take up new challenges. Maybe its Allah's way of testing my patience in Ramadhan~

Whatever it may be, I pray (hard) so that things will go well soon. Ameen.

[2:155] Dan sungguh akan Kami berikan ujian kepadamu, dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar. (AL BAQARAH (Sapi betina) ayat 155)

My new colour craze~

2011-08-02T15:27:00.001+08:00

These days, I am all so crazy with everything that has pink, purple, turqoise, baby blue and white in it.

I even bought Cosmopolitan (Malaysia) because it has Fazura yang sungguh jelita and these color combination on its cover without browsing its content first! (Which I later find to be such a good purchase and totally worth it ^_^)

Even Mr. T was infected by this color craze and he bought his first purple shirt with a pink purple lilac stripe tie a few days ago *hiks*

According to professionals, the color change reflects the changes in your feelings and personality. I've had a phase where I wore nothing else but dark blue and grey shirts & t-shirts all year round (luckily I did not have the liberty of not buying my own baju kurung back then, if not, it too will be on of these boring colors), then I had a phase where I was so into red and pink. Now, my craze of red has grown less and less but in addition to that everything that has turqoise, pink, purple, blue and white seem to catch my eyes the most.

So maybe I will choose my theme color based on my latest color craze :)

Read:
Lovers of blue have a deep need to find inner peace and truth, to live their life according to their ideals and beliefs without having to change their inflexible viewpoint of life to satisfy others.

Indigo lovers have a need to feel in harmony and at one with the Universe and to be accepted by others as the aware and intuitive spiritual beings that they are.

If purple or violet is your favorite color, you have a deep need for emotional security and to create order and perfection in all areas of your life, including your spiritual life. You also have a deep need to initiate and participate in humanitarian projects, helping others in need.

If your personality color is pink you have a deep need to be accepted and loved unconditionally.

If turquoise is your favorite color your deepest need is to create emotional balance in your life, to be able to express your hopes and dreams no matter how idealistic they may be and to make your own way in the world under your own terms.

[Source: http://www.empower-yourself-with-color-psychology.com/ ]

Ramadhan is coming!

2011-07-27T09:27:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for Ramadhan to come. 4 more days to go :)

I'm counting days a lot lately ;)

But I am so upset that I failed to make any improvement from last year @_@

I do hope Ramadhan this year will be more fruitful then the last one. I pray that I will be given the light to be a better Muslim. Ameen~

So many things to do before Ramadhan comes by. I need to go for Ramadhan shopping and do some spring cleaning so that I can do my ibadah (harapnya la) with ease.

Kalau umur panjang, after Ramadhan will come a greater adventure. I can't wait for that too ^_^

Scary Mary Me~

2011-07-21T12:47:00.001+08:00

(This is a very old post - read 6 months - that I forgot to post, so I am posting it now for me to remember the incident, and I will have a lot more older post to be posted after November 2011 :p)

It has been a sleepless week last week since we have been having some spooky encounters in the house and in my office.

Spooky story No. 1
My roomate has not been feeling well last week. I wrote about her once in my previous posting.
I advised her to go and see a medical doctor for her condition, but instead she went to a witch doctor, who later found that someone has been sending something to follow her, and that something always linger when she's around. I told her to recite the Quran and confide an Ustaz as well, so that she can learn how to protect herself. Learning from my previous experience reciting Quran is the best way to fill in the void and keep us away from harm. Plus, it will ease her all-the-time stress syndrome.

She has been talking quite a lot in her sleep these few weeks. It has been disturbing my sleep but I thought it was stress.

And a few weeks before she told me this, I have seen more shadows in the room. I tried to ignore it, but goosebums still surfaced. I couldn't recite the Quran as I was on my menses. But it comes and go, so I didn't think of it much except that putting a mental note to recite Yaasin in the room.

When she told me what the witch doctor has told her, I put two and two together and takot siot. So the shadows I've been seeing is true, and no wonder its on and off, it follows her around. I'm so scared and I pray that it will stay away from me.

Spooky story No. 2
My boss was not feeling well also, and when I asked him why, he told me of what had happen to him earlier in the morning.

He called his cousin sister to asked how she's doing since she has also been witched by a few weeks ago and you know who answered him?

The "thing" answered him in the voice of his cousin- "I'm still here" and started laughing histerically.

He tried to stay calm and say goodbye to end the phone call, but honestly, I can feel the chill from where he is sitting up to my place.

He immediately put on Al-Quran recital to calm down the situation.

When he finally find the strength to tell us what happen, we already told him we felt the chill...spooky~

I still get goosebums whenever I am reminded of this incidents.

Nauzubillahiminzalik~ minta dijauhkan.

Choosing your confidant~

2011-06-27T20:32:00.001+08:00

Have you ever had the aching feeling of uneasiness in your stomach because you have ~~a major gossip~~ something important to share but are afraid that if you share it with the wrong people, they might use it againts you?

I am having that feeling right now.Who should I share this with?

I am feeling jittery to share a very important information but I am truly scared if the information gets to the wrong people, they would use it to my disadvantage.

The news (good and bad) is so big, that I don't even dare share it here!

*sigh*

What a feeling~

I use to have a few special people whom I think I can confide most of my joy and sadness with.

I seldom share my sadness tho because people don't usually handle bad news as calmly as I can *woha*

But now, I think I should have kept some of it bottled up as it turns out, some people just cannot be trusted to feel happy for your joy, or sympathy for your sadness (I have this bad habit of looking at people too positively sometimes and fail to see the dark side in them.)

Learning from that mistakes (which I've made countless times) and back to the topic, who should you trust with your utmost deepest darkest secret?

My answer -
Yourself.

But who should you trust to share your joy or insecurities? Who should you choose as your confidant?

My answer would be (after making mistakes and learning from them ;p) -
It should be someone whom you can trust to respond with nothing but positive values and would not drag you to ~~hell~~ a deeper hole or someone who you might hurt in the process of sharing the news.

Of course there are professional confidant whom you can hire such as a psychiatrists to keep your secret should you feel the need . But from the people among you, you should choose wisely.

I admit that I am only human, so I never plan not to make any mistakes again because obviously, making that plan is a mistake in the first place. How are you to know if someone is worth chosen as your confidant in and out? Even Professor X. Xavier who has the ability to read minds could not figure out that Magneto is a bad person at heart and would kill to reach his goals.

It's a tricky business!

So a note to myself : whenever I have this bottling feeling that I want to let something out, I should always talk to my brains first and see if there is any danger or bad affect for me to share that feeling. I must choose carefully. Or if I can't choose, I should just sink my head into my pile of workload and hopefully I would be able to forget wanting to share it in the first place.

Because at the end of the day, I just want to be happy and not let negative things affect me. That is the whole idea of sharing a secret or a very important news; its to spread the burden and feel lighter and easier so that you can go to bed at night and not feel like something is lurking in the depth of your stomach.

Sob sob srrooottt sroottt srooottt...soppy soppy story~

2011-06-13T13:54:00.001+08:00

I cannot smile today~

I've ran out of tissues, but its a good thing as well as I've also ran out of tears.

I've been crying since early this morning. The truth is - I have a soft spot for old folks. Whenever I see them really ill or hears that they are admitted to the hospital for major illness, I will feel very very sad @_@

Same goes if you ask me to visit any old folks home, where all the adorable datuks & neneks sits wondering when did their lifes past them by and where are their loved ones - I will break to tears in just a few seconds and may not stop sobbing for the next hour. I'm not a good company if you want to visit the old folks home. I'll only make them sad and they would have to confide me instead of the other way around huu~

I would not cry as much if I were to visit an orphanage. The orphans have a whole future in front of them. They just need a boost of positive vibes~

This morning I received the news that one of my closest friend's father has past away. Luckily the children managed to get back to their hometown just in time to see him. If not, I cannot wonder what regret they might felt, not seeing their father or mother for the very last time (owh~ here comes the tears).

I just saw that pakcik a few weeks ago, he doesn't look that ill to me at that time. It was such a sad news indeed.

I called my ayah immediately after I got the text message to see wther he is okay, and was glad to hear that both my parents are very much fine, although their health has been deteriorating due to some unfortunate events that has happened a few weeks ago. I wish them strength to get through this bad times and find their happiness again. Some things are not worth our tears and risking our health with.

I cannot bear myself to loose them anytime soon. so I pray that they live long and healthy.

Ameen~

What do you want at the end of the day?

2011-06-08T15:13:00.000+08:00

Mr. T and I have been busy with work lately. He's busy with his work and I'm busy with mine.

But at the end of the day, I always anticipate to see him smiling at me.

So when there are days which I know that I would not be able to see that smile at the end of the day because he has to work else where, I would feel so demotivated to go to work and the day will turn out to be very draggy~

*sigh*

The truth is I can't afford to be demotivated when I have staff under me looking for that energy or spark. It is a blessing that I get to sit in an isolated place so that I can act motivated whenever I walk the floor. But this is wearing me down...

Why owh why is this affecting me so badly? Angau kah?

So I've been thinking...

I need a booster. I know I cannot be happy unless I see Mr. T at the end of the day but maybe, just maybe, I can get motivation by changing my style. Rebranding has always given me a boost and what more reason to go shopping, right? Wee~

Hey~ online clothes store, here I come!

My current style favorite is Kate Reed from Fairly Legal. She has a very nice coat!

Ikut suka lah...

2011-06-04T13:56:00.003+08:00

Me: "Dear, me nak buat ini itu ini, blh?"
Him: "Ikut suka lah"
Me: "yeay~" (terus buat decision)

Lepas tu kena tazkirah-the truth behind "ikut suka lah" ialah "kamu dah habis fikir ke? Saya rasa kamu belum habis fikir lagi. Tapi kalau kamu rasa dah habis fikir, itulah keputusannya"

Huu~ come to think of it, memang my decisions were a bit hasty and didn't take a few things under consideration.

Tapi, nasib baik saya fleksibel, jadi tak adalah keciwa sangat ^_^

But, thank you for being my conscience~

Kenapa saya perlu menulis di dalam blog ini?

2011-06-03T18:35:00.002+08:00

Source.

Sebab saya adalah maha pelupa akan tarikh dan rentetan peristiwa x_x

Minggu lepas, saya dan Mr. T berbincang mengenai satu dokumen rumah, dan saya lupa sama ada dokumen tersebut diperolehi sebelum atau selepas kereta baru ini muncul dalam hidup kami.

Jadi salah satu rujukan saya ialah blog ini.

Salah satu sebab lagi ialah, kerana tak semua perkara yang terbuku boleh diluahkan dengan kata-kata ~~tanpa pertumpahan darah atau air mata~~.

Membaca post post terdahulu juga banyak mengingatkan saya untuk bersyukur di atas kejayaan yang Allah beri pada hari ini.

Alhamdulillah~

The reason I'm writting this post in Malay is that I find my karangan skill and Malay vocabulary to be a bit rusty, so this is one way to brush it up. Dah lah di tempat kerja semua kertas kerja dalam Bahasa Inggeris, bila lagi nak berlatih memperkayakan bahasa ibunda kan?

Jadi, saya akan cuba sehabis baik untuk meneruskan blog ini. Banyak peristiwa yang pahit & manis telah berlaku sejak dua bulan yang lalu dan tidak dapat dirakamkan di dalam blog ini : (

Tapi berita gembira buat diri sendiri, saya telahpun menstabilkan diri dengan kerja baru dan akhirnya dapat mencuri sedikit masa untuk menulis di sini.

Jumpa lagi nanti Mia!

Cinta dan sayang~

2011-06-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha berkuasa.

Diletaknya rasa sayang dan cinta pada kita sehinggakan kita mampu merasa kasihan dan memaafkan orang yang kita ada sayang, walaupun kelakuannya jelik dan peribadinya pelik.

SubhanAllah~

Terma jelik dan pelik di atas tidaklah merujuk kepada Mr. T tercinta. Cuma sy sangat terpana dengan kuasa Maha Pencipta.

SubhanAllah~

Dah bersawang bawang rupanya kat sini~

2011-05-03T23:20:00.001+08:00

adoi~ I have been sooooooooo busy :(

Quick update.

Alhamdulillah~ I have finally got the promotion, and right now are trying my level best to adjust the tune of my newly acquired team members to suit me best.

As soon as I can work everything in automode, I'll jump right back in here :)

How I wish I have a stone cold heart, its not easy making decisions when you have softy hearts such as mine. Although I follow thru, but it really does hurts inside.

adoi~

Spending my birthday with my love ones~

2011-04-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

The picture (which I drew out of shere boredome while waiting for Mr. T) below sums up my birthday celebration.

I use to have fun out with the girls for my birthdays, but since non of them (including me) was available on the eve of my birthday, and the fact that my birthday fell on a Monday makes it an even better reason to head back to my hometown for the weekend spent with family.

I'm glad that my life is bless with happiness - Alhamdulillah~

The night before my birthday, I had a wonderful night out with the family, and had my favorite crab nyum nyum nyum. I just love the sweet yummy crustacean!

We went home at 10:30pm with our stomach full and eyes sleepy. So I head to bed by 11:30 and was awaken by the surprised birthday song, sung by the family at midnight. Thank you for the song and the gift! I love you all lots~

Then, early the next day (which is on my birthday) I took a non eventful flight back to KL and fell right into the arms (not literally) of my cinta hati at KLIA.

Mr. T fetched me up and together we headed off to look at the progress of our dream house before we had our brunch at ICE ROOM. We had Durian Ice Cream Pancake for dessert - another one of my favorite food, yummy!

It was my first time there, so I didn't know what to expect when Mr. T first told me in the car that we are going to Ice Room. Should I put on a sweater or are we having icecream for lunch? I was wondering, but to my surprised Ice Room have a variety of hot dish as well as yummy cold desserts ;)

After a wonderful wonderful brunch, we head to Sunway Piramid (which I am not familiar with eventho I have been there a dozen times) and did a little archering!

Mr. T wanted to surprised me with the activity. I had never experience commercial archering before. It was fun (and safe mak) but I think the guy who was incharge of us was gay because he payed more attention to Mr. T rather then this no-talent-in-archering-birthday-girl who obviously needed more help :(

I had a great time nontheless. Thank you love~

We also went for a little birthday shopping and a lot of window shopping before we head off to watch Beastly later in the evening. Which is a modern remake of the ever so romantic Beauty and the Beast. This version tells the story from the Beast's point of view and is set in the modern New York City. Love is never ugly~

The Beast was played by hunky (have I ever use the word before?) Alex Pettyfer while Vanessa Hudgens played beauty ;)

Its a great movie for those romantics at heart, and it is even better when you have someone you love seat next to you throughout the movie.

Thank you my loves (which includes my family) for such a wonderful birthday!

Mia Sara yg comel~

2011-03-25T19:26:00.004+08:00

If this is the first time you ever drop by here, then you may not notice the change, but for those few frequent readers --> saya saja letak widget Mia at the corner tu sebab saya suka Mia yg comel ;)

Dup dap dup dap dup dap...

2011-03-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

I have less than a week to prepare myself for the big interview I have been waiting for.

I wish I have the gift of saying the right thing at the right time.

Wishing myself luck, and may Allah gave me strenght and ease to go through this challenge.

Once that is over, I can go back to my usual blogging and blog hopping.

Meanwhile ... Dup dap dup dap...

Marvelous March~

2011-03-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

I love March :)

I always get lots of gift and best wishes in March ^_^

Thank you so much for those who gives gifts and those who wishes!

So many updates I want to post, but yet right now I am so busy with work.

I may be getting the promotion I have waited for so long. Although it is not exactly as I want it to be, but I hope it is a great stepping stone for me (or who knows, it might be just the right one for me afterall)

So I need to put my head to work first and hopefully I am able to update later.

Dear March,

Don't leave me yet :*

Thirst~

2011-02-24T20:59:00.002+08:00

Mr. T and I usually drop by bookstores every now and then.

About a few months ago, when we went into one of the bookstores, a book caught my eyes.

Thirst No. 3 - The Last Vampire 7: The Eternal Dawn (2010) by Christopher Pike.

Just look at the cover, doesn't it capture your eyes too? Those alluring eyes~

When I was in my early teens, before I discover Sidney Sheldon or John Grisham, and after I got over Enid Blyton, my favorite authors at that time was Christopher Pike (CP) and R.L Stine. I love mysteries, and at that time, I love ghost stories even more. Even Russel Lee (Singapore Ghost Story writer) was listed as my favorite author at that time. (Remember we use to have a biodata book? These are the 3 names I use to like during my awkward teenage years.)

When I saw the book, I wanted to buy it so much but I want to start with book 1 first, so that I won't missed out much.

So I searched the book store for Book 1, but unfortunately, they have ran out of stock. I was upset :(

I went looking for the book the next time I went to Midvalley, Amcorp Mall, The Garden etc. But I finally found it in Kinokuniya KLCC about a month ago.

It is listed under the young adult fiction. Yes, Christopher Pike still writes teenage novels.

It was a happy and joyous day for me to have finally found the book I was looking for what seemed like ages.

So I eagerly set aside a warm cup of coffee and started to read the book. Young Adult Fiction are not hard to digest. No complexity.

So here I am reading it with enthusiasm, when it finally dawned to me that this Vampire in CP's book is a Hindu.

Have you ever read any books that has a vampire who has a religion and that religion is Hindu?

It was odd for me at first, but I kept on reading...the character, firstly introduced as Alisa Perne turned out to be an "original" Aryan girl who was born in India by the name of Sita. She married a Rama. (Like the epic Sita & Rama)

She was later transformed by the first vampire who walked the earth 5000 years ago and later repent and came back to her believe in her original religion when she meets up with Lord Krishna (one of the Hindu God), and she made a promise to Krishna not to create a vampire again, but broke that promise 3000 years later.

A vampire with a religion, who made a promise to her God and later broke it and wonder whether she is still in His light. She share her view on her believes.

Then I finally realize that I was not a teenager anymore and such stories seemed ridiculous for me to. How could someone who has lived 5000 years and not get any wiser?

I like epics, even of the Ramayana epic. But this novel taking the epic into the next level is just hard for me to digest. Seriously, I regret buying the book. You can read the whole adventure of Sita or Alisa Perne here in wiki and it mostly sums it all quite well.

It was somewhat interesting where the story twist. CP still has the mystery magic, but I'm sorry. I cannot read any further. Must be the age factor and the fact that it disturbs me to be reading a religious view from someone who has made a pack with the devil.

Good friends are hard to find, even harder to keep~

2011-02-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, when I pass through a familiar path, my mind goes back into those days where my life is spent with someone who is no longer in my life right now.

I wonder where he/she is right then? If our path ever crossed again, will we ever be friends like we use to?

I thank God for the friends (and enemies) that has been brought into my life and those who are still around me. They are a part of who I am right now.

I miss some tho~

and since my birthday is coming up very soon, I hope I get to spend it with most of them this year ;)

Berilah aku petunjukMu~

2011-02-15T13:53:00.003+08:00

Sedap bukan alunan lagu dari Opick?

Harini, sekitar 1500 tahun dahulu, lahirnya seorang manusia yang begitu hebat. Daripadanya kita dapat belajar mengenai Islam - Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

Saya masih ingat, ketika berada di dalam darjah satu, senyap sunyi 40 orang pelajar Islam di dalam bilik darjah kami mendengar Ustazah menceritakan kisah kelahiran Nabi Muhammad s.a.w ke muka bumi.

Betapa di tahun kelahirannya, berlaku peristiwa tentera bergajah yang diserang burung Ababil serta bagaimana terdapat cahaya yang menerangi bumi ketika Baginda dilahirkan.

Sepanjang zaman persekolahan, kita juga disajikan dengan pelbagai kisah Nabi dan perjuangan yang dilalui Baginda dalam menyampaikan dakwah sepenuh masa.

Saya juga masih ingat bagaimana kami menangis ketika berada di dalam kelas Agama Islam tingkatan 5 apabila Ustazah menceritakan peristiwa kewafatan Baginda. Di saat kewafatan Baginda, Baginda menyebut adalah Ummati, Ummati, Ummati.

(Syukur Alhamdulillah saya dilahirkan Islam, dapat belajar Agama Islam di sekolah dan diberikan tenaga pengajar Islam yang bagus, sukar dicari ganti)

Betapa sayangnya Baginda Rasulullah kepada umatnya ini.

Boleh terbalaskah sayang umatnya kepada Baginda?

Semoga Baginda dicucuri rahmat sentiasa, dan semoga Allah memberi petunjuk kepada diriku, keluargaku dan sahabat-sahabatku, agar dapat menjadi umat yang soleh & solehah~

Salam Maulidur Rasul.

I love Google~

2011-02-08T12:49:00.001+08:00

Imagine what our life would be without Google?

DULL!

I love Google's concept. I wish I can work in an environment such as Google where good ideas are taken seriously (or not, but in a good way) and be presented in the best way possible.

Today, Google pays tribute to Jules Verne. The author of many books but only one that I know of which is the Journey to the Center of the Earth.

Check the Google page. Cute right?

I missed my old company's environment before the merger. Life is less adventurous these days.

Peringatan (kepada Allah) boleh datang dalam pelbagai cara~

2011-02-07T22:24:00.001+08:00

Saya ditimpa sakit yang amat beberapa hari yang lepas x_x

Sakit sangat, makan tak lalu, cirit-birit dan muntah-muntah, ~~hilang 3kg~~ dan tak bersemangat untuk pegi bekerja sangat. Tak larat nak bergerak langsung.

Jadi, untuk memastikan boss dan rakan-rakan sekerja mengetahui keadaan saya yang lemah dan tidak mengesyak yang bukan-bukan jika saya tak muncul di tempat kerja, saya letakkan status kesakitan saya di Facebook.

Salah seorang rakan memberi comment, "Shafakillah".

Saya yang jahil ni tak tahu apa maknanya ayat di atas, jadi saya pun segera bertanya Mr. T (yang pernah bersekolah agama) dan pakcik Google.

Rupa-rupanya ia adalah sebuah ungkapan doa yang diucapkan yang bermaksud, "Semoga Allah menyembuhkan kamu" (Atau semoga kamu diberi penawar oleh Allah, lebih kuranglah maksudnya, saya memang tak pandai sangat nak mengarang, maafkan saya jika salah)

Terus tersentuh hati saya yang tak bersemangat tadi untuk berwudhu dan bersolat memohon Allah menyembuhkan kesakitan yang saya alami.

Hampir terlupa untuk bersolat dan bermohon secara "formal" kepada Allah kerana sakit yang amat. Sesungguhnya saya insan yang lemah.

Alhamdulillah, selepas tu, saya berasa lebih lega dan dapat tidur lena.

Hari ini, saya dah semakin sembuh dan dapat bekerja :)

Alhamdulillah~

Terima kasih kepada Allah kerana memberi Hidayah dalam bentuk yang sungguh tidak dijangka. Hanya dengan sepotong ayat.

Terima kasih juga kepada sahabat tersebut, kerana dia selalu mengingatkan saya kepada Allah.

Our little City Adventure!

2011-01-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

Last year, Mr. T and I went for a geeky adventure in National Science Center.

This year, we had another geeky rendevous at Petrosains>Discovery Center.

What can I say, we bring out the ~~geekyness~~ child in each other.

I have been waiting to have an adventure in Petrosains for ages! Unfortunately when the day finally came, I got diarhea and gastric all in one. So I was a bit lembik and grumpy at first.

But we did it anyway.

This was my brunch:

I couldn't digest solid food or take anything else without vomitting, jadi ini adalah the best food for energy. (alasan nak makan ice cream)

Mr. T takes a bite at the McD Chicken Prosperity Burger. The burger is quite hot for our tastebut, but I like the tagline on the lemonade that accompanied the spicy burger --> Where MMMM meets AHHH~

I don't know why the picture would not turn to the correct order!

McDonalds have the best marketing team ever!

Once our stomach is filled ~~with love~~. We started our adventure at about 1:15pm.

The ticketing clerk was a bit shocked to learn that Mr. T and I are no longer students! I know we don't look our age most of the time. (Students have a different entrance rate)

There were no queues since we went on a working day. We were ushered straight into the DARK RIDE.

I was half expecting the ride to be somewhat of an adrenalin rush, that maybe the gondola may at anytime tilt and Mr. T and I would scream out of our lungs. But this is afterall a Discovery Centre (DC), not a theme park, so the Dark Ride was a slow one and beautiful display of slides on how Malaysia has evolved over the millions of years (yes, back from the dinasaur age).

There are several sections in the DC. First stop would be the Petrojaya. We tried many interesting display here and Mr. T got stuck playing with the sand digger machine *so cute*

After that we went through the Sparkz section where Mr. T and I take turns to shoot each other with the air canon.

Can you spot where the actual bullseye is located in the picture?

We also went on
1. A simulation helicopter ride to an offshore platform in a stormy weather and the the seat belts were jammed! Why did I chose the front seat?
2. Journey into the dark outer space (I hate this) and tried navigating a small space shuttle to fix a mechanical malfunction on a satelite nearby (which I failed, but Mr. T did with ease)
3. Skiing (where I beat Mr. T yeay!)
4. and I also tried the Petronas Go Kart simulator (I am not a good driver, couldn't even win a simulation race!)

Finally we also took on a very large slide. I was so anxious getting into the large darked tube slide, but since makcik makcik pun lepas masuk and Mr. T was being persuasive so I gave it a go. It was exhilarating!

I can't remember when was the last time I went on a slide, but I was half expecting my mother to wait for me at the end of the tunnel like she always does when I was a little girl hahaha..

Petrosains is a great place to spend time with someone you love. Its something different from the usual movie date.

It can take two to three hours of your time to go through all the excitement and it only cost RM12 per adults.

And the best part is most of the adventure will bring the child back in you ^_^

(Enjoy the youth while you still have it)

saya mahu tidur~

2011-01-24T12:54:00.000+08:00

Sesungguhnya hati dan minda kini dibebani perasaan yang amat berat...

Mata juga terasa berat...seperti mahu tidur seribu tahun dan biarkan masalah ini berlalu pergi...kerana saya tak berasa ada kekuatan nak menghadapinya.

Kenapa asyik berasa malas dan hati berasa panas ni?

The day I watched Wall Street : Money Never Sleeps~

2011-01-17T23:20:00.003+08:00

This post is 2 months late but recent incidents in the office politics has brought me back to the movie. The truth is the movie still lingers in my head...

If you have ~~live long enough to~~ watched the 1987 Wall Street movie featuring a younger Michael Douglas and Charlie Sheen, you would have known that Gordon Gekko (played by Michael Douglas) coached young Bud Fox (Charlie Sheen) to become one of the youngest corporate leaders at the time and in exchange he uses Bud to get inside information for stock tradings.

Long story short, Gekko got caught for insider trading and is send to prison.

Insider trading (correct me if I'm wrong) is trading of stocks for a company by someone (or more) who has the information of the company's stock which is not known to public. In other words, total stock manipulation.

How do these stock manipulators get caught? It is either they are not smart enough and can be outsmarted by the authority or there's a whistle blower who blows the cover away. Or, in some cases, luck is not on your side as you thought it will always be.

The incident in the office does not go as far as to have a big impact to our stock holdings but enough to link us to a corrupt practise allegations with another mega international company.

Talk about bringing the company into the wrong kind of limelight!

It may not be intentional of the person in questioned for this allegations but I believed that having the kind of information that will affect the future purchased or project management slipped from his/her tongue is very dangerous as well.

We need to always mind what we talked about, especially when mingling with vendors or worse - the competitor.

A good control of information should have been practise in the company to ensure the purity (is there purity in business?) of each business transactions. You could walk into any of the company offices' and find highly confidential information lying on a desk or table, ready for others to read. I find this really disturbing.

Being transparent in doing business is one thing but lacking moral concious to distinguish sensitive information to harmless one is another. I state this to remind myself of this as well.

Please do not say that I did not play my part to make the improvement. I have already improved many processes from the previous ones and have tried all my best to set a good example but unfortunately, I cannot fight the waive of ~~stupidity~~ care less attitude that most of the people here have been practising for ages.

It is such a disappointment!

Back to the movie Wall Street 2 : Money Never Sleeps.

The title of the movie truly portrays what the movie is all about. The power of money is so visible in this movie.

The power to crushed you and make you a slave to money and at the same time to make you the king of the world.

The movie begins with the release of Gordon Gekko from prison. You can read the plot here.

The people in the story is so obsess in making more and more money even when they have more than enough to spend; and there is the opposite.

To me it's easier to be in the opposite part when you have experienced the downside of being a slave to money. This statement relates to Jake Moore/Shia LeBouf character who is very much alike Gordon Gekko who persues money versus the character of his girlfriend Winnie Gekko/Carrie Mulligan who works for a non profit web magazine. Winnie is Gordon Gekko's daughter who did not want to have anything to do with her father after seeing his obsession for money has done more damaged than good in her life.

But it is a great movie nontheless. I just love Shia LeBouf's wardrobe in this movie. Totally brings out the corporate punk in him.

The movie is full with good messages, drama, actions and love (for family and romance) all wrapped in one great package. It is quite a heavy movie if you are the type to go for the light comedy genre.

But I love it so much anyway to recommend this to those who have not watched it yet.

Have a productive week~

I love the poster.

because I am scared and bored~

2011-01-07T20:28:00.002+08:00

Work is so frustrating these days~

The satisfaction is no longer there. It has occured to me last month that my boss is keeping me away from promotions because he thinks I would not be happy else where (and the fact that he is reluctant to let go of such a talented staff whom he can always rely on *masuk bakul angkat sendiri*).

True, my office is the best work place to be. The current officemates are like families. My boss loves me and I can work well with him.

I still get to do things I love and the projects that I always lead.

Why am I whinning if everything is so great?

Because I am scared and I am bored.

I am scared that I will go no where while my other friends advance well before me.

I am bored because I cannot make the decisions in projects like I use to and the fact that I cannot see where my department is currently heading. I hate shooting blinds.

I am scared that one of these days my boss might not love me as much anymore and then I will no longer be able to advance anywhere because the train have left me far behind.

I am bored being drained off my ideas and not being able to learn as much.

I am scared I may loose this exciting role and end up doing nothing.

I am bored because I do not have the money to go on a French Language Class, take up Economics in MBA (which I wanted to do for quite some time), undergo Professional Project Management Certification Course and travel around to visits interesting place.

At the same time, I am thankful that life is not bad. In fact, other than work, life is great. I have Mr. T most of the time *clingy*, I get to spend time with mak & ayah a lot lately, I get to spend time with friends whenever I want to, I have a well paid job ~~although its a bore sometimes~~ and I am not in some kind of trouble.

I hope this scared and bored feeling will not last long because it is draining me out and I am about to be sucked dry already.

I just need to vent this negative feelings and remind myself that all is well and Allah itu maha mengetahui~

"Dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya"
(Surah al-Baqarah [2]:216)

Bracing myself for 2011~

2011-01-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

In March 2011, I will be 19 years old plus 10.

It will be an important year as it will mark the last year of my twenties, and let me be honest - my twenties have been the greatest era of my life (to date).

Many new experiences have been embraced.

Many challenges have been encountered.

Many new people who have colored my life with joy and pain been met.

Very interesting adventures and life turning decisions made.

Althought there are some regrets since I have not accomplished a few of my wanted goals, but maybe, just maybe, these goals are meant to be achieved in my thirties so that it will always stay as colorful as my twenties have been for me.

So, Welcome 2011.

May it be blessed with wonderful things so that I can cherrish it forever and ever in the most enjoyable way possible!

Picture courtesy of BIA.

Cuti-cuti bersama cinta~

2010-12-31T23:51:00.001+08:00

I’ve been meaning to post this travel log for over a month!
My PC went kaput halfway thru and I have been very busy doing things manually for a while.

Yes, this time we did go on a vacation together. Accompanying us was my office entourage, so no, we did not just go alone. Mana boleh go alone before married, bahaya~ :p

To tell you the truth, I was quite worried about us going on a vacation together. To date, this is our first vacation together and I am quite scared to see how it would turn out.

It turns out, I was worried over nothing. If I was head over heals in love with Mr. T before the trip, after taking this trip I felt madly in love with him even more.

Where did we go to?

We went there on a Friday because we wanted to avoid the weekend crowd and the ticket cost less on weekdays. The one day ticket cost $66 on weekdays ($48 for children) and $72 on weekends ($52 for children). You can also buy a two day ticket at a different price.

Honestly, one day may not be enough if you are the adventurous adrenalin junkie type.

We reached there at about 10am and while waiting for the ticket to be purchased by our very resourceful tour guide, Mr. T and I wondered around the complex. Mr. T was very fascinated with the Candy Shop and we took quite a lot of photos there. We even took photos at the Hard Rock Hotel Entrance but I can't post it here since there are very little scenic photos and lots of photos of ourselves :p

The USS have 7 Zones altogether.

We started with the Madagascar after entering USS' Hollywood Section.

We started with King Julien's Beach Party-Go-Round at the Madagascar Zone. I took on Melman while Mr. T rode Gloria~

The other rides were not open yet so we moved on to Far Far Away where we met Shrek & Fiona and went into a little adventure with them in Shrek 4-D Adventure and experienced the Enchanted Airways.

After a hefty lunch.

We headed to the Lost World. The rides gets more dangerous here after.

I hate dinasours. If they were to come to life, I would be one of the first to die out of fear.

But thanks to Mr. T, I went anyway. We had the most enjoyable time riding the Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure. I managed to avoid getting wet and clinged to Mr. T all the time.

We also took on the Canopy Flyer which I find quite a bore since it was such a mild ride compared to the Rapid Adventure we had earlier.

The most anticipated part of the USS for me was the Ancient Egypt. I just can't wait to reach here!

When we finally got there (and away from the jungle and dinasours) I just get myself lost in the ancient world. I love it so much, but the Pharoah nearly got me twice. It was scary, I even had to run the second time.

Look at the Pharoah, choosing his victims~

We went on the Revenge of the Mummy roller coaster and it was great. I wanted to do it again, but we were running out of time so we had to run to the Sci Fi Zone which was a disappointment because many of the rides are not yet open except for the Accelerator, which is just a cup ride which Mr. T managed to spin into the most dizzy ride I ever experienced.

I got myself a potion bottle and a Universal Studio shiny T-Shirt for souvenir. But we ran out of time to enjoy Hollywood and New York Zone because we had to regroup by 4pm to see the 4D Show in another part of Sentosa Island.

Before we left Singapore, we did a quick shopping spree at Arab Street and Orchard Street. Window shopping mostly as the sales has not started yet and limited time *sigh*.

Mr. T and I went hopped from one mall to another in Orchard Street and managed to cover 4 shopping malls within an hour! The Orchard Central escalator ride was so overwhelming as it is the highest escalator ride I have ever been.

The trip was a success and Mr. T and I hope to be able to come and visit Singapore again soon!

p/s: Thank goodness you came along, dear. I would not have that much fun if you were not there. No one else wanted to go on the rides like we did :p

Run Forest Run~

2010-12-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

It was a day out with my old housemate Al.

We have not spend that much time together since she got married last May.

Honestly, I missed going out with her. We used to do that almost everyweekend for the last 3 years until she finally meet her now husband end of last year. Then the outings just went for every weekend to once a month to once in two months and none at all until I hosted her bachelorrete sparty last April.

I can put her down as one of the best things that happen to me in my twenties. Yes, there are ups and downs, but lots of memories none the less.

OMG, I sound like an old woman already. Reminising the past (and I am not even near to my big 3 oh yet :p)

So back to the story...

We went on a shopping spree and spent no more than RM80 and got ourselves a new pair of shoe, blouse and lingerie. Thank you Christmas Sale!

After our feet are feeling a bit numbed from all the shopping and stomach started rumbling, we finally went to Bubba Gump for a late lunch.

This was my first time here. Bubba Gump Restaurant is a food chain restaurant build with the concept of the famous Forrest Gump movie.

The menu is basically Shrimps and Beefs.

On the tables there's a bucket filled with Sauces and Napkins, and the sign below. (Please excuse the amateur pictures, I just don't have that much in me, that's why I seldom post any pictures)

If you are ready to order or wants the friendly waiters to attend to you, all you have to do is flipped the sign to Stop Forest Stop. Flipped back to Run Forrest Run if you do not want to be disturbed with your meal.

We had the most scrumptuos Cajun Shrimps for appetizer. It is simply mouth watering! *drool*

Cajun Shrimps - Sauted in hot and spicy Cajun Butter Sauce, served with Garlic Bread for Dipping RM 23.90.

You can taste the buttery sauce in every bite and the Garlic Bread is the best I have ever tasted.
After nearly 40 minutes savouring this large serving of juicy shrimps, we had our main course served.

This was Al's recommended dish. Al happens to know the Chef so eventho I don't usually choose ribs, I had it a try and it was a BLAST! The most delicious ribs I have ever tasted! The taste is lock in the ribs and it is not dry and just look at the fries - yummy!

BBQ Beef Back Ribs - Slow roasted tender Beef Ribs, served with Fries & Coeslaw RM62.90.

The shrimps and ribs did not dampen our mood for my favorite part of each meal - the dessert!

So I flipped the sign Stop Forrest Stop and ordered Chocolate Chip Cookie Sundae.

We had a hard time choosing as they had an array of delicious desserts, but finally decided to give in to this deadly sins of chocolatey treat. My first bite:

Chocolate Chip Cookie Sundae - A warm, freshed baked Chocolate Chip Cookie topped with Vanilla Ice Cream, Caramel, Chocolate, Peanuts and Whipped Cream RM15.90

Owh~ I so want to go there again! There's still a lot on the menu to be tasted and savoured. (But the price is quite over the edge for a casual outing, right?)

Overall, it was a good day out. Shopping, good food and good company. What more can a girl asked for :)

Fumbling Bumbling~

2010-12-21T12:48:00.000+08:00

My life is a mess when my lappy went haywire~

Luckily Mr. T was there to help put things back on track~

Now I'm picking up the pieces that has been left apart from the wreck.

x_x

I've got a few post to upload once all this is done.

Big year coming ahead~ ^_*

Lightheaded or heavyheaded?

2010-12-10T13:38:00.001+08:00

I was feeling a bit lightheaded and woozy all around, so I went to see the doctor.

Me: Doctor, I'm feeling lightheaded and my head is spinning. Rasa macam nak terjatuh.
Doctor: If your head is feeling light, why do you feel like falling?
Me: Err...
Doctor: It must be because your head is heavy, so that's why you feel like falling, right?
Me: Ok, so I'm feeling heavyheaded? *confused*
Doctor: I'll write you a subscription for vitamins and you can take 2 hours off to go lie down somewhere safe until you feel better ok? *winks*
Me: Ok *confused*

Is it my fault that I felt like tumbling down when I am lightheaded? Should I have had said that my head feels like its floating when I feel lightheaded?

Or was the doctor trying to be funny or flirty at a person who is feeling dizzy daisy?

Wikipedia gave a very good description for lightheadedness which describes what I am feeling right now, I can't however find the term for heavyheadedness. Can you?

Hati yang panas~

2010-12-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

Sejak kebelakangan ini, hati saya selalu dilanda kepanasan yang amat.

Banyak juga kejadian yang membakar perasaan yang tidak ingin saya catitkan dalam blog.

Oleh kerana saya berasa amat risau dengan tahap kepanasan hati yang semakin meruncing ini, saya pun merujuk pakcik Google dan alhamdulillah dipertemukan dengan blog My Doa.

Terima kasih pada yang sudi berkongsi ilmu yang sangat berguna :)

Minta dijauhkan dari kesesatan.

Amin~

Tangled with Deathly Hallows~

2010-11-28T23:03:00.007+08:00

I went for a movie marathon with Mr. T and watched two best movie ever!

I had my doubts to watch Rapunzel or Disney's Tangled at first, but when I finally did - I just love love love love love love the movie!

This is the BEST DISNEY ANIMATED MOVIE EVER after Beauty and the Beast of course~

The story (just like the other Disney's animated movie) made a few changes on the storyline and characters (or should I say give character) to the original Rapunzel fairytale that the Brother Grimms wrote which we've heard before.

The Disney's Rapunzel is a princess and the prince from Brother Grimms version is a stunningly handsome thief named Finn Rider (or later revealed - Eugene Fitszherbet)

The movie begins with an old woman name Gothel who found a magic flower that blooms from a ray of sundrop. Gothel uses the flower to stay young. All she has to do is sing to it and the magic will flow to her. Instead of sharing the gift of the flower, Gothel kept it hidden.

Centuries has passed and a kingdom was build not far from where Gothel hid the flower. The kingdom was ruled by a kind king and queen. The queen fell very ill when she was pregnant with the the princess so the whole kingdom started to look for the flower to cure her.

A guard located the hidden flower and brought it back. When the queen drank the juice, she was cured and later gave birth to Rapunzel who has a golden hair just like the flower.

To celebrate their princess's birth, the kind and queen sends a floating lantern into the sky.

One night Gothel sneaks in and tried to cut a few strand of the princess's golden hair for her youth potion and it turns out that once the hair was cut, it will turn brown and loosses its power.

So what other option does Gothel have but to kidnap the princess and kept her locked up in a very high tower, right? Thats is exactly what she did. She did not want to loose her "magic flower" again.

And instead of keeping the child prisoner, Gothel raised the child as her own and puts the phsychological chained instead. The child grew into a cute princess who loves Gothel as her own mother.

The adventure and handsome hero comes into the picture when Rapunzel turns eighteen.

It is a great movie to watch with your loved ones and your children, and especially recommended for those romantic at heart. I want to watch it over and over again.

Maybe I'll bring my mak and brother and sister to watch it again next weekend. I still remember the time she brought us to see Beauty and the Beast (and the Little Mermaid, and Aladdin and on and on). It was magical! Love you mak.

^_^

The other movie we watched was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1.

This was by far the most draggy Harry Potter book I have ever read but the movie however was a great one for me. Full of adventures and emotions! It was not as dry as I have expected it to be.

Owh~ how I was emotionally affected when watching this movie. Maybe because I love the character and can feel their pain (especially when Dobby died @_@ ). Or maybe its because HP is so close to the end so I wanted to savour the feelings before it all ends.

The director highlighted the best part of the story and did not get stuck on the draggy part so much. Kudos to David Yates & team!

The legend of Deathly Hallows narrated by Xenophilius Lovegood (Luna's father) was illustrated well in the movie. It was like a mini movie within a movie.

I can't wait for the second installment of this last series in 3D next year!

Thank you J.K Rowling for such a great adventure :)

Unexpected Movies~

2010-11-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

Movie No. 1: Dr. Rozmey's 2 Alam

Gerenti pecah punggung, tak pecah panggung!

The marketing for this movie has already made its impact, but I am sorry to say that I regretted my decision to go and watch this movie with my niece & nephew.

It cannot even match our teledrama. The quality and the narration fail to give us even the gist of what was implied by the vast promotion that Dr. Rozmey has made.

It was such a waste of talent & good storyline because the movie was not delivered well.

I was expecting hantu, but none showed up and there were a lot of unnecessary scenes shown repeatedly.

Enough said.

Then I went and watch Movie No. 2: Let Me In.

This one gives me nightmares! I didn't plan to watch this but there was no other interesting movie to choose from. (I'm saving HP with Mr. T)

Eventhough I have read the synopsis prior to watching the movie, it seems harmless as the story revolves around 12 year old children, but I can still feel the chill.

The storyline was excellently presented!

The story revolves around a boy named Owen who was small for his age of twelve and has become a subject of bullies in his school.

Owen's parents is in the middle of a divorce so he was being neglected by his parents. I understand the phase that the parents and children goes through in a divorce as I was 11 when my parents got divorce.

Lucky me because I have my younger siblings to keep me occupied and the fact that my parents have thought me well before their divorce the virtues of right and wrong, so I did not go astray.

Back to Owen who on the other hand, has no friends and no siblings. Left by his father, while his mother is suffering from a broken heart. Such a cold and lonely place to be.

His only hobby was playing on the playground of his house reinacting the scenes of revenge that he imagine he would do towards his bullies while at some other time spying on his neighbours through his telescope.

One day, while he was spying, he saw a girl moving in with a grown man (whom he suspect was the girl's father) next door. It was winter and the girl was barefooted.

Owen met the girl the next night when he was playing in the playground and that is where their friendship blooms.

The way the friendship started out was harmless, but you cannot deny the first attraction there.

You can read what happen next through wiki. But better yet if you can go and watch the movie and experience it!

It's something different from Bella and Edward's story and far from any horror movie I've watched before, I can assure you that.

I know that there are a large grey area between good and bad, and depending on where your moral compass points to, some things may seem so horrible to others while some may see it as nothing more than a mean for survival.

But the moral of this story is to ensure to guide your children (and families and friends) way further from the bad areas as once you stepped a foot into it, the more you became lost between good and evil.

Happy watching~

Hari Raya Aidiladha~

2010-11-16T22:53:00.006+08:00

Raya tahun ni tak sempat nak buat Qurban : (

Duit habis dipinjami org dan mereka tak sempat bayar, jadi saya redha.

Harap-harap tahun depan ada rezeki untuk saya korbankan seekor biri-biri.

Kenapa nak korban seekor biri-biri?

Ini berpunca daripada dialog bersama pakcik saya yang saban tahun memang ditugaskan mengendalikan korban.

Katanya, tahun ni ramai orang Arab dari UIA yang nak cari biri-biri untuk dikorbankan.

Bila ditanya kenapa perlu nak cari biri-biri sedangkan di Malaysia susah nak dapati spesis tersebut, mereka menjawab -

"Sesuatu korban tu lah yang akan membantu kita melintasi titian siratulmustaqim nanti. Kalau korban biri-biri, bolehlah berpaut pada bulu kambing biri-biri yang lebat masa kita nak melintasi titian siratulmustaqim, kalau kambing biasa, mana ada bulu sangat untuk berpaut?"

Walaupun saya mendapati jawapan ni sangat funny (org Arab memang berani bergurau ke tahap itu) dan saya faham yang penting ialah keikhlasan, tapi saya juga teringin nak pelbagaikan korban saya buat bekalan di alam sana.

Antaranya hadis daripada A’isyah, Rasulullah bersabda;

Maksudnya;

“Tidak ada satu amalan anak Adam di hari-hari Nahar (Hari-hari ‘Eidul Adha) yang paling Allah sukai selain daripada menumpahkan darah (sembelih), kerana ia (binatang korban) itu akan datang di hari kiamat nanti dengan tanduk dan kukunya dan bulu-bulunya (sebagai saksi ke atas ibadah korban tuannya), dan sesungguhnya darah (binatang korban itu) akan tumpah di sisi Allah di suatu tempat sebelum tumpah ke bumi, oleh itu pilihlah olehmu binatang terbaik (paling menarik) untuk dikorbankan. ” (Hadis riwayat Hakim, Ibnu Majah dan Tirmizi dan dianggap sebagai Hadis Hasan Gharib)

Sudahkah anda berkorban? :)

p/s: bagi yang masih belum mampu, kita berdoa agar dimurahkan rezeki ye. Jangan stress stress~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha~, Maaf Zahir & Batin.

Estet vs. Megamind~

2010-11-14T21:31:00.002+08:00

It was movie week with Mr. T last week before we went on our first trip together. (Which I will write later)

This post is not meant to compare both movies, it is just to show the different aspect of the movie that I like or dislike~

The first movie we went was Mamat Khalid's Estet.

Mr. T was so excited when he saw the movie preview last week and this has been a movie he has been waiting for about a week after our last Malay movie - Cuti-cuti Cinta~

I love Mamat Khalid's nuttiness in exploring different kinds of genre. This is his first Kollywood based movie and my first too. (His first time directing, my first time watching in a Cinema)

Guess who is the hero for Estet? Yes, it is Farid Kamil again.

The story revolves around the drama in Estet Cinta Manis.

Our heroes (there were two heroes - Farid Kamil as Farid & Sashi Tharan as Shashi) have to win a soccer match againts a neighbouring estate in order to save their estet from being sold and the soccer coach's daughter who was the love of Farid, being forced to marry the estet supervisor.

It would not be Kollywood enough without actions such as throwing your jacket in the air, boxing bad men then catching the jacket back after the crooks have been defeated. There was even a special affect being done for the action scenes. Songs golek golek and to add to the comedy was Mamat Khalid's signature antiques for odd characters.

(It was hard for me to digest at first as the last time I watched a Tamil movie was like 10 years ago on a Deepavali eve. Luckily Mr. T who is a fan of Kollywood was there to help explained that some of the extravagant script and actions that was always part of a Tamil movie.)

I think Mamat "Rajni" Khalid did a good job. It was something different and it has managed to unite both Indians and Malay movie viewers into the same cinema.

What's next En. Mamat? ^_^

Kudos also to Rosyam Nor who gave many of us a great laugh in the movie. It is to show that he is such a talented and versatile actor. Actor Tamil pun mesti nanges tengok Rosyam perform ahaha..

Then, the day before we went for our first trip we stole some time to watch Megamind.

Honestly the preview did a bad job at promoting the movie! I was not even attracted to see the movie at first, but I was so glad that we did ^_^

I never expected that the storyline to have such a twist. It is a great romantic comedy with a gist of action. I love it!

Although, the story takes a bit of Superman epic and also had a similar villain as the ones the Incredibles faced and even the heroin looks similar to Susan from Monster vs. Aliens, it does have a story of its own.

The bad guy never gets the girl, but who says that you have to be the bad guy forever? Nobody can put the final mark on you until you have made your choice. Rebranding is always an option.

Megamind is super cute and hillarious! Ollo~

I recommend Megamind for those with taman in their heart and I recommend Estet for those with open mindedness in mind and both for those who has a good sense of humor!

I love movies ^_^

Sila ambil kayu pengukur a.k.a ruler semua~

2010-11-06T22:28:00.001+08:00

Mari sini kita buat ukuran, adakah kayu pengukur kita semua sama?

Tentulah tidak. Kau dan aku berbeza.

Apa yang membuatkan kamu bahagia tidak semestinya membuatkan aku bahagia.

Apa yang membuatkan aku gembira tidak semestinya membuatkan kamu gembira.

Apa yang aku rasakan berjaya, mungkin tidak mencukupi buat kamu.

Apa yang kamu rasa berharga mungkin lain nilainya bagi aku.

Jadi...kenapa perlu susah-susah hendak mengukur kebahagian diri aku berdasarkan kayu pengukur kamu?

Kelainan kayu pengukur kita, tidak semestinya bergantung kepada latar belakang pendidikan yang sama saja. Jauh sekali kerana bangsa yang sama.

Kayu pengukur itu kan banyak dipengaruhi oleh pengalaman dan pemerhatian individu itu sendiri.

Sifat kita sebagai individu juga berbeza.

Ada individu yang simple, ada individu yang kompleks.

Apa yang penting ialah kita saling hormat-menghormati keputusan satu sama lain, dan memberi semangat untuk berjaya dalam apa saja pilihan yang dibuat.

Dan sekiranya kamu mempunyai hati yang besar, bolehlah juga memberi semangat dan pertolongan sekiranya pilihan itu tidak berjaya.

Bukan memaksa untuk keputusan itu dibuat menggunakan kayu pengukur kamu, dan menjatuhkan hukuman sebelum kesalahan itu dibuat.

Jadi, ini adalah peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga. Stop generalizing and stop judging. If you start judging before actually experiencing the experience, then you are robbing yourselves the chance to see things in a different light.

Life is so full of colors, why decide to see it in only one color?

Anyway, Happy Deepavali to all the Hindhus. It has been a wonderful holiday this year :)

Cuti-cuti cinta bersama si dia~

2010-10-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

Tidak, saya tidak pergi bercuti as in actual bercuti bersama si dia.

Tetapi kami pegi menonton cerita Cuti-Cuti Cinta bersama-sama.

Saya dah agak dah cerita ni bakal simple saja, tapi Mr. T dah tergoda melihat trailer cerita tersebut maka semalam, tanpa dirancang, kami pergi menonton bersama di TGV KLCC. (kali pertama menonton wayang bersama selepas jam 8pm)

Dengan hanya berbekalkan 6 orang pelakon utama sahaja dan dalam 5 orang pelakon tambahan, cerita ini tersangatlah biasa sehingga membuatkan saya berasa bahawa adalah lebih sesuai sekiranya ianya dijadikan telefilem daripada filem.

Banyak dialog yang cliche dan jalan ceritanya pun memang cliche sangat.

Tiada yang luar biasa cuma saya amat tertarik dengan watak Omar Rudy yang dibawa oleh Farid Kamil.

Beliau adalah orang yang sangat redha dan tidak takut menghadapi apa saja yang bakal berlaku.

Simple dan redha.

Apabila kawan-kawan melarang dia untuk menuruti kehendak Eeva (Nora Danish) untuk pusing pulau (pulau apa yang ada di Morib tu weh?) kerana keadaan cuaca yang tidak baik, dan bertanya bagaimana dia akan menghadapi masalah jika tiba-tiba berlaku cuaca yang buruk, jawapannya simple:

"Macam mana aku nak tahu macam mana nak menghadapinya sedangkan aku belum nampak bahayanya lagi?"

Kemudian bila Eeva bertanyakan, jika dia di tempat Eeva dan tunangnya bermain kayu tiga, apa yang dia akan lakukan, jawapannya:

"Mana saya tahu, saya belum bertunang dan belum berada di dalam situasi tu"

Tidak membuat andaian yang bukan-bukan, dan tidak pula berfikiran negatif :)

Kalaulah hidup semudah itu...
Walauapapun, tahniah pada Cat Farish & Azizah Mahzan yang berjaya buat saya gelak guling-guling dalam pawagam tu! ^_^ me likey~

all hail the bride(smaid)~

2010-10-24T17:09:00.003+08:00

The day finally came when I had to wear a red kurung for the pengantin~ (read the word 'for' and not 'as' before the word pengantin a.k.a bride)

(Referring to my post Love is in the Air~)

We stayed at the Kuala Kangsar Rest House (which looks like a haunted building) the day before the wedding. I did not see any ghost perse but it is no doubt the best spot to shoot a horror movie. The building will remind you of the era where the British was still here in Tanah Melayu. The price for a normal room is RM150 which I find it overpriced as it was just a rest house. With that rate, we should at least have gotten a 3 or 4 star hotel service *sigh*

The wedding started very early next day and surprisingly, this is the first ever wedding that went on time. Everything was on the dot. Not even 5 minutes late!

The wedding reception was held right after the solemnization, so it was quite a challenge to ensure everything goes well.

And when the clock started to reached noon, it was so hot! I thought I might faint and create a scene but luckily that did not happen even with me running around in heels and red kurung under the hot and humid weather.

It must be magic! (ahahaha...I always faint under hot weather, such a puteri lilin)

The bride did not go bridezilla eventho there were some minor hiccups here and there. She was so calm~

The wedding turned out beautifully. Not just plain beautiful, but romantically beautiful without the need of chariot or sexy men blowing horns and stuff that is out of the ordinary.

Maybe because everybody was nice. No one yeld or grunts. Everybody smiles and laugh a lot.

We were doing the outdoor photoshoot when the sky drizzled on us with blessings from the allMighty. Finally~ the temperature has gone down and we can feel the cool breeze again.

Kuala Kangsar is the royal town of Perak and it has many beautiful landmarks that is evidence to the great history it holds, so there were a lot of scenic places to go for an outdoor photoshoot. We spent the most at the old castle - Istana Sri Sayong (which is closed for visitor since it is under renovation)

My legs are a bit numb today from the running around, standing, standing, standing, posing, posing and jumping all about. (Literally jumping because the photographer asked us to jump with the bride & groom) I wonder how the bride & groom are doing?

I also met quite a few interesting people after the wedding which I may write in here later. All I want to do today is rest.

To my dearest friend who is the bride-congratulations dear! It was your day of a happy beginning~ (and wishing many more happy days to come -cheers-)

(and this also brings a reminder to all those 30 something ladies out there that jodoh may come anytime, you need not worry about age!)

Saving my soul with Maher Zain~

2010-10-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'm so lucky that I have friends who are always updated with events in KL so I got the chance to watch this dazling man perform live in MBSA, Shah Alam on Friday.

When that friend of mine booked the ticket, I was asked to collect it from Raudhatus Sakinah.

I never knew what Raudhatus Sakinah (RS) was. In fact that friend of mine who made the booking thought that RS was a person.

I didn't even think of googling before I went there as I was given a full address.

But when I finally found it, I was shocked to find that they are a part of Jemaah Islah Malaysia (JIM)organization.

This was where my journey to the RS office begins:

I stood standing there for about 5 minutes, thinking whether I was wearing the appropriate attire to enter this premise and avoid hearing painful remarks. I've had my share of bad experiences with Ustaz & Ustazah who cannot tolerate normal pant suit, so I was a bit traumatized.

But I was greeted with a smile at the door by an Ustaz after a few minutes of standing there so I decided, what the heck, we're all grown up, surely they can look pass thru this clothes and see that I'm just a normal Muslim and took 4 flight of steps (semput mak) and got to the office and successfully retrieved the ticket without prejudice.

Okay, not all without prejudice. The ticket clerk asked whether I was a big fan of MZ. I said that I like his songs and am familiar with a few, but certainly not a fanatic. I was told that I was lucky to get the tickets, many of his fanatics were there asking to sell them the tickets.

I was taken aback, these girls are wearing tudung labuh bagai, but how come they cannot control their emotions towards a man who sings religious songs? Surely MZ did not want us to worship him too much, does he?

Then I figured that it was me who was being prejudice. Tudung labuh does not mean that they can not be tempted with things like these. Clothing doesn't at all reflect people. We're only human, true that some of us tries their best to wear hijab to be a better Muslim, but the road to righteous is never easy. Clothes cannot turn us into angels.

Anyway, my big applause and congratulations goes to RS as the organizer of this event, this was one of a very good example of promoting yourself and your course. Syabas!

ANDA BIJAK, JAUHI ZINA was the name of the course and I fully support that it is high time that we preach to our teenagers to avoid sex without marriage.

If you want to know more about RS, you can click the link above. RS is an organization within JIM that promotes good Muslim lifestyle for those who seek shelter and knowledge.

The day finally came when the ticket served it's purposed.

The showcase was hosted by two beautiful women - Wardina Safiya and Fara Deeba.

And before Maher Zain came up, there was an interlude by In Team and Aishah.

I never like In Team so no comment ~~you bore me to death!~~.

But Aishah was a different case, I never knew she has moved on from her balads and pop days to singing Islamic music. She is also a part of the RS now and is currently making an album dedicated to enlighten her children and ours the wonderful messages of Islam.

She sang a beautiful song called Anak and tears came down my eyes. It was beautiful and I cannot described how touched I was with the lyrics.

Menyesal tak beli albumnya @_@

Maher Zain finally came into the limelight and the crowd went wild with applause saja ye.

What more can I say about MZ?

Wardina in her opening speech said that life is all about the choices we make. If MZ did not made the choice to change his life, we would not have had the chance to see him here in Malaysia. We might however be seeing him on stage with Lady Gaga in New York.

I'm glad he made this choice to sing Religious songs and I am even more glad that I had the chance to see him live in Malaysia~

He's charming and owh so humble...and handsome and have the greatest smile. No doubt.

I was so frustrated he only sang 8 songs.

(Allahi Allah Kiya Karo, Always be There, InsyaAllah, For the Rest of My Life, Baraka Allahuma Lakuma, The Chosen One, and Hold My Hand were a few that I remembered)

But it was afterall, a showcase, and not a concert!

Thank you MZ for a wonderful night. This was my first nasyid showcase and it was a blast!

^_^

Yummy Ice Cream Day~

2010-10-12T21:43:00.005+08:00

Today I went on a mini roadtrip to Beryl's Chocolate Wonderland~

I had nothing to do for lunch, so I decided to join my friends on the hunt for mouth watering bitter sweet minty (and now they even have Durian!) chocolates!

Althought it was not an adventure like ~~I imagined~~ what we saw in Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, I had fun browsing thru racks of wonderful chocolates and tasting free samples :p

I couldn't decide what to buy (it all tasted great before lunch) but my friends bought more than enough chocolates to last us a ~~lifetime~~ month! (or so)

When we finally step out of the Chocolate Shop, I saw this ice cream fella and quickly follow his "guide" to the Beryl's fruity ice cream shop.

There, I had the most wonderful Durian Ice Cream I have ever tasted!

I didn't get the chance to snap a picture of it as the weather was so hot, I could not risk saving (and savouring) the ice cream from melting so I drew one as a reminder :p

Eventho this drawing does not in any way looks like the one that I had, the sight of it reminds me of the wonderful taste that I have experienced today *meleleh air liur*

Then...later today day, on our way back from office, Mr. T surprised me with Cornetto Show Your Love Ice Cream !

(kalau saya tergemok sebab terlebih Ice Cream, dia masih akan sayangkan saya kan? @_@)

I just love sweet tasty treats from my sweetheart ^_^

Thank you, dia~

It is the first time I walked out of a show in Istana Budaya~

2010-10-05T15:36:00.000+08:00

I was so happy when I got this tickets eventho it wasn't planned for and I never thought that things will end the way it did~

I'm sorry Siti Rohayah Attan, Rosminah Mohd Tahir & Ismail Kassan for walking out of the Tun Mahathir the Musical yesterday!

Don't get me wrong, I love Tun Mahathir and respect him a lot, he is my idol, and I also enjoy watching theathrical play, but I cannot stand another hour of seing Tun "sing" in Istana Budaya. I just cannot force myself to sit thru it any more~

The dialogue of the play was very well done, I also like some of the chareopgraphy (especially Tampal Poster) but the songs were killing me! It was like I was taken back to the 80s (not in a good way).

I'm sorry Datuk Pak Ngah! I cannot digest the songs. Maybe it's just not for me~

I've never walked out on a play before. This was my first, ever!

It was quite a disappointment : (

Magik ka Magika the movie?

2010-10-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

I wanted to watch Magika with Mr. T since last week but something happened that made us waste RM22 for the tickets! (read my ramblings first before I get to the part of the movie below :p)

Mr. T had not slept finishing his work and game tournament last week, so I decided to not let him drive all the way from PJ to pick me up for our Magika (magical?) session before he drives me to the airport for my northern trip.

I took a cab to PJ, and before getting into the cab, I asked the pakcik cab driver whether he really knows the place because I was in a rush. I got into the cab at 1:30pm. The movie starts at 2:45pm.

I did some calculations and expect to reached there the latest by 2:35pm. I did get to the area at 2:35 but unfortunately the pakcik took a wrong turn (or sengaja take the wrong turn to charge me extra) and cost us another 30 minutes and RM10 to the meter for a U-turn bagai.

The cab trip was RM40 but I only paid RM25 because the pakcik was at fault. I was already in tears so the pakcik did not dare to ask me for more when I handed the money.

When I finally got out of the cab to Mr. T, the movie was already been played for 30 minutes : (

I was so upset, and I know Mr. T was too. With all the effort made, we missed a movie for the first time!

Luckily, we finally had some time to spare before I get to a friend's open house today so we took the chance to watch Magika! ^_^

I wouldn't say that it was such a great movie, but I enjoyed it very much :)

It's quite funny and proud at the same time to see such a movie being made by Malaysians.

It was not a total disappointment but there were some dry scenes.

Some of the lyrics does not rhyme but the music are so nice.

Why is Badang not as strong as he should be? Nak angkat Ayu masa Ayu jatuh kat bridge tu pun mengambil masa.

And I must say that the Nenek Kebayan's evil laugh (played by Ziana Zain) is similar to Professor Klon from Cicakman. A note to KRU, villains does not have to have the same laughter, they are suppose to be unique!

You can read the synopsis here. But you need to watch the movie to actually enjoy the beautiful scenery of Magika!

Sadly~ I heard a boy (in the audience) asking questions about the characters portrayed in Magika.

I doubt that the younger generations can relate to Mak Andeh, Pak Pandir, Mahsuri or Badang as much as my generation and the older generations did.

Even their version of Bawang Putih, Bawang Merah refers to the Indonesion Sinetron rather the original folklore told in the older days (tua sangatkah saya?)

What a pity~

We should have commercialize our folklores a little bit more so that the younger generations can relate to it too.

Are we losing our mark?

Apabila hati terluka~

2010-10-02T10:02:00.000+08:00

Berdoalah~

"Ya Allah, ketika kegalauan hati hinggap, hidup terasa gelap. Sinarilah setiap hati yang gelap dengan kasih sayang-Mu. Singkirkanlah perasaan marah, kecewa dan dendam dihati setiap hati hambaMu yang terluka.
Ya Allah, Sembuhkanlah bagi mereka yang sedang sakit pada malam ini" - Muhamad Agus Syafii

Rainy day~

2010-09-30T08:01:00.001+08:00

It's 7.50am and the sky is grey~

'it's a wet and gloomy day, I wish I was in bed' was the facebook status of a friend who was already prep up at the office.

And me?

Yes, I'm still in bed. Snuggling my comfy warm blanky and browsing thru my iPhone.

Work starts at 9, and I still have plenty of time.

Life is a bliss~

I should be thankful!

Hummer ke Hama?

2010-09-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

This has happen 2 days in a row to me with two different people.

Person No. 1: (While holding a cushioned bag) Hummer!

Person No. 2: (While touching her car seat) Cik Kopi, Hummer!

My reaction was the same, "Apa Hama?" looking at the bag & car seat for bugs eeekkk...

Rupa-rupanya it turns out what they wanted to show was Hummer as in the SUV, not Hama as in the bug.

Maklumlah jarang-jarang ada Hummer di Malaysia ni.

I find it gigantic!

And today I saw a cute car which look just like a mini Hummer~

Nissan Cube.

Ini lagilah jarang-jarang dijumpai :)

Which is which?

Saya memang buta kenderaan~

What's with the cold shoulder?

2010-09-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

With the festive and forgiving mood all around, I think that some of my friends are giving me the cold shoulder still, or they are just damn busy to return my messages/calls or too kopak to top up their phones : (

I have not been good in handling the situation when given the cold shoulder. I worry too much and can't wait for the ice to break!

Usually I won't react to it physically but the stint burns me inside.

I know that I shouldn't worry much, but I just can't help but feel a little unhappy. I like being friends, although sometimes I may not have the time to be one all the time. But then again, who does?

Hey~ I can't read your mind okay! Please be fair and let me know what I did wrong or at least have the courtesy to meet me half way so that we can both improve on the relationship.

Or we can just ignore this and I will let you to continue to be the selfish jerk you are and let myself be happy freely? I should choose the latter :)

Selamat Hari Raya,
Maaf Zahir & Batin~

Jalan-jalan Ramadhan~

2010-09-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

Part 2: Sabah

I wanted to write this one right after the first post, but work just get the best of me as always.

After an "interesting" flight, we reach KK at noon, and had our iftar in Shang Ri La Tanjung Aru.

Terus saya berangan-angan kaya raya dan nak bercuti cuti di Hotel tersebut dengan Mr. T and my family nanti huu~

The beach view is amazing, and the arrays of food is mouth watering. I could not resist to ate french bread, with grapes and cheese just like shown in Ratatouile. Macamlah tak dapat kat KL kan? The main dish is non other than seafood. Yummy!

Tengok picture yg I kidnap from the official web page. Superb kan? Siap ada gamelan performance lagi.

After feasting ourselves with the ~~buffat~~ buffet, we head back to town which is a good 30 minutes drive and right before I nearly doze off in the car, we stopped. To my surprise, we have not yet reach our hotel but we were at a Karaoke joint instead.

I was surprised that we were there especially in Ramadhan. Mak takot kalau-kalau ada raid ke aper, matilah mak kena tangkap buat dosa di bulan puasa. It turns out that it's a family joint and the room was just superb. I had no where to run because I don't know where I was in the first place. So mak pun nyanyi lah satu dua lagu.

It was a stress release therapy in a way, but I was feeling quite uncomfortable all the way.

Sahur is at 3am in the morning. I can't believe I managed to wake up and take up a full meal at 3am!

I was on a business trip with people who are working with me, so I had to be professional, right?

The second night there, we had a fabulous seafood spread at Gayang Seafood which is located in Tuaran, Sabah. It's nearly 45 to 50 minutes ride from Plaza Wawasan.

We reached there at about 6.20pm while the iftar there is at 6.25 so it was a bit of a rush.

I wanted to upload the pictures here, but seriously, we ate like piranha's and when I did remember to take the camera out, there were only plates left.

After gauging on the sumptous seafood galore and chit chatting with the local rep there, the night was still early. We were treated to a food massage spa which can host up to eight people in a room.

Imagine, having private rooms for a foot massage with your friends while watching TV and eating snacks. (Yes, there was a lot of eating activity). It was an amazing experience and luxurious. I have yet to find that kind of service here in KL.

We said goodbye to KK the next day, and I can't wait for my trip there as I am wanting so much to go for the island hopping trip which have been dued for so long!

A new experience~

2010-08-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

Part 1: Sarawak

This year, work has brought me to experience fasting in Sabah & Sarawak.

I honestly did not know what to expect, usually, working outside means we would spend our nights eating out or enjoying the other city night life (if there is any) or just shopping.

This is also the first time I went there with my officemates after such a long time. Previously much of it was a solo project.

Not to forget that I was quite excited at the idea of breaking fast one hour earlier than our usual time here in Semenanjung :)

I can't say that I was proud at how we spent our nights there especially when we made nothing special to celebrate Ramadhan : (, but the experience is just too worthwhile not to be put in entry here.

Once we touched down at Kuching Airport, we had a quick break fast in the hotel room courtesy of MAS and head straight to Barok to enjoy the tantalizing mee kolok and mee bandung.

Second night there, we had dinner at the Grand Magherita Hotel, Kuching. The arrays of food was just superb!

I didn't get to snap any pictures here but for those in Kuching, Grand Magherita is certainly the place to treat yourself, family or clients to berbuka puasa. No regrets.

And after we're full, it was only 8.45pm. I just love the time there!

Too early for bed, we headed for the cinema located just across the street from where we're staying and watched Avatar; The Last Airbender.

My boss and I are such big fans of the cartoon. I was quite disappointed that the Aang in the movie does not reflect the cute Aang in the cartoon. The movie version of Aang lacks sense of humor. I mean, leave it to M. Night Shyamalan to kill the jokes and made the movie so damn serious x_x

And I fail to distinguish the firelord Ozai from Commander Zhao and some of the other firenation armies at first. They all looked nearly the same to me. And why is the firenation Indian? Have they ran out of Chinese/Japanese actors? It was quite disturbing to watch but overall I like the fact that the story (minus the humour) does not fell too far apart from the original one. The effect was marvelous.

The next day, we finished our job in Sarawak and had our break fast at a new hotel called Regal Court Hotel near Satok. Although the choices for buffet is limited, the food was simply delicious. I'm not saying this because I ate while I was so hungry and for the fact that it was free, but the food there suits my picky tastebuds :)

With the night still so young when we finished our buffet treat, we went to catch on another movie. Although the movie is still an action movie, but it has more ~~violent~~ adult action and Jet Li in it- The Expandables.

What can I say about this movie? It was all kill kill, bloody blood blood, old men kind of love, bomba bomb bomb and smack down.

I just don't get it, Jet Li in his movies can always beat the toughest and biggest crook there is but in this movie, he needs help by his buddy ~~and the movie's producer~~ Sylvester Stallone?

Dah lah heroin tak cun. Sangat macam Rambo ok. My boss enjoyed the movie while me and the other girls squirmed in our seats everytime somebody's head got cracked. I checked my watch every 10 minutes.

It's just so not my type of movie!

We finished our trip there shopping at Dayang Salhah's Kek Lapis Store and snapping pictures at the beautiful Majlis Perbandaran Kuching Selatan's building. We only get 10 minutes entry there so the mission was to enter and snap snap snap pictures all the way :)

Its a beautiful building-MPKS.

The flight to KK was a bumpy one as we took MAS Wing, and we had to stop at Bintulu (first time there and I spent a whole 30 minutes at the airport!) before we get back to KK. My friend cried when we experience the air pocket. Its usually that way in KK but since this was her first time there she was so traumatized by it. Kasihan~

To be continue...

Here comes Ramadhan al Mubarak~

2010-08-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

How fast time flies eh?

I still remember the spooky encounter I had last Ramadhan and had wished that the same thing will not repeat itself ever again.

This year I did not put my expectation too high for my Ramadhan's ibadah. I'm trying to do one thing at a time so that I don't stress myself.

I had my iftar with a new set of hommies today, and I would be lying if I said I did not missed my old ones.

But these are a group of nice people, they only have different backgrounds so they don't actually connect to my jokes nor my slang of bahasa melayu : (

But overall, they are nice. (Self motivating words)

Happy fasting~

Can you keep a secret?

2010-08-06T22:08:00.005+08:00

I have finally finished reading Sophie Kinsella's Can You Keep A Secret?

To my surprise, I liked it very very much.

My first attempt with Sophie Kinsella was Remember Me? given by my little sister a few years ago. It was a disaster! I stopped reading it after a few pages and it is now collecting dust on my book rack.

Then I tried her Confession of A Shopaholic and still, I could not bear myself to finish it eventho I enjoyed the movie a lot and watched it more than once.

It was then when I made up my mind that Sophie Kinsella may not be for me after all, and or the fact that I cannot digest chic flick maybe.

But, how did I came to read Can You Keep A Secret?

Well, my sister was looking for the book for quite some time. It seems that it has been sold out in major bookstores in KL and Penang! So, when I got a glimpse of it at the KLIA, I didn't think twice to buy it for her.

She was ecstatic. After she finished reading it in just two days (because she could not put the book down), she kept persuading me to read it saying that it was a good book. Since I haven't got a new paperback to read (I still have yet to finish Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol and Reader's Digest Select Edition 2008, both in hard cover), so I brought it along with me to accompany while I travel.

Little did I know that Emma Corrigan (the main character in the novel) clicked with me from the first page.

Emma is a girl who has yet to find her niche in life. Some would say a late bloomer (like me). But her luck was changed when she was sent for a business meeting in Scotland. (I remember my first business meeting huu~) It all started when she blurt out all her big secrets to the guy who sat next to her on the plane because she thought that they would all die in a plane crash and she would not want to bring all the secrets to grave alone.

It turns out, that guy is her boss! If you were Emma, don't you wish you can just vanished into thin air and pop right back when he's gone? Or just kill yourself? But the story has a good twist to it and lesson learnt from this cute love novel is that although too much honesty is never good for health, keeping too much secrets are not healthy either.

When you can open up some of yourself to others, there could be a chance that good opportunity can knock on your door.

It is somewhat a relieve reading it ^_^

Maybe I should take Remember Me? off the rack give it another try~

Love is in the air~

2010-08-01T22:23:00.004+08:00

I had a wonderful weekend and I couldn't stop smiling.

I spent a whole day in KK yesterday, accompanying my friend as she gets engaged. There were four of us altogether, one is incharge of the transport, one cameraman, one make-up artist and me who did a bit of everything (memang saya sorang saja yang tak ada tugas)

This party has been a surprised! It was set up in less than 2 weeks!

She asked the guy to marry her two years ago before she hit the big three-oh, but he said he wasn't ready and would like her to wait for him for a couple more years. He needs to save up and be financially ready before tying the knot.

We were like, owh~ is he giving an excuse to break up with her? Or is he wanting to change their status from in-a-relationship to open-relationship or maybe something else?

She would be more than 30 in two years at that time, and in my culture as in many others, women who is not married by the time they get to thirty is considered old maid (heck, they might even consider her an old maid if she's not married before she reaches her 25th birthday), and people would bombard you with lots and lots of "when are you getting married" questions and gives you this simpathetic looks of "owh~ poor you unlucky girl, you are going to end up old and alone"

This friend of mine was devastated, and I know deep down she has her worries that this person may not keep his promise.

But love is hard to come by. True love that is. Men and women are more complex these days and you can't just simply marry the next guy that comes along and expect him to make you glowy and happy. You might turn to maybe-we-will-fall-in-love to I-loathe-you if you end up with the wrong person.

Why the rush if you know you simply cannot tolerate with second best, right?

Her patience paid off, after two years, he actually proposed! This time, it was all him, and he wants to marry her before the year end : )

When I got the news I was jumping with joy that I simply blurt out that she need not worry, I'll be her maid of honour and helped her out! I was just so happy for her!

Once the euphoria wears off, I honestly couldn't remember that I have promised her that (It was so spontaneous, I didn't know what I said) until she reminded me yesterday after her engagement party. I was like, what? Did I promise to do so?

Now that I think of it, I may have said it after all. Nyanyuk la makcik ni.

The engagement party was simple and surprisingly perfect! I have no other words to describe it :)

You can see love in the air.

He loves her, she loves him, her father loves her, his mother adores her, her brothers and sisters went to all the trouble to show their love too, she love us, we love her and so on and on ... ahahahaa...

My friend who has never put on makeup for as long as I've known looked so beautiful in her white kurung when my make up artist ~~mak andam~~ friend made her up.

Everyone was great~

We had loads of durian at the end of the event, which is quite the highlight after the photography session :p

We went snap snap snap and pose pose post with peace peace peace from the beginning to the end.

It has been agreed that the wedding will take place 3 months from now (maid of honour pengsan sekejap when she hears this) and the theme would be red, which is currently not enlisted in any of the maid of honour 7 pairs of baju raya this year. Therefore, the first thing the maid of honour shall do is go shopping as she has also promised the engaged friend that she will prepare her own baju for the event.

Why do I make these promises?

Owh ya, I was happy and couldn't control myself. I have more sense of control when I'm tensed :p

p/s: But I just can't wait for the big day ^_^

Can I get an IPad?

2010-07-23T21:55:00.005+08:00

Mr. T is a very ~~nerdy~~ techy person in a way where he loves tweaking new gadgets if he gets his hands on it and would spend hours learning the technology and not even remember he has someone thinking of when is he going to use one of his techy stuff in a form of an IPhone to call her(that would be me).

When Ipad was launch not so long ago, I was wondering when he was going to pop that question, until it finally came yesterday.

~~"Will you marry me already?"~~ "Can I get an IPad?"

Eventho I had anticipated this, I still did find myself a response because I have a mix feeling about it.

He already have a laptop, a desktop, a netbook and a Mac Book on the way, and he wants an IPad to add to the collection. Don't they all have the same functions? When will he find the time to use them all?

Isn't it expensive for something we don't need?

We're saving to get into a new house next year, and maybe get married before that. We need to save money.

But, honestly, if we do have the extra money, I don't mind if he buys an Ipad any time. I would like to play with it once in awhile too, and if we do have extra money, don't we all would like our loved ones to have what ever they want :) (to a certain level of course)

I remember saving this comic strip somewhere in May to show it to Mr. T and I finally get to publish it here.

Adam@Home is my daily read at the moment. How I wish I can work from home too someday : )

I missed Toy Story 3 in 3D!

2010-07-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

I wanted to catch Toy Story 3 in 3D eversince I saw the promo when watching Alice in Wonderland, but I missed it : (

*nanges*

Would you be ok if someone you love kisses someone else passionately?

2010-07-12T21:59:00.005+08:00

That was the first question I asked Mr. T when I got home from watching The Twilight Saga's Eclipse~

He was like, "What?" and then pura-pura merajuk.

and if he'd asked me that question, I would jump off a cliff and die.

But not Edward~ he remains calm (tak merajuk or jump off the cliff) when Bella kisses Jacob~ but then again, he has died before.

I like the graduation speech given by Bella's friend whom I can't remember her name (sorry!). Everyone has to make mistakes in order to learn from it and make a decision. And I think this is one of the reason Edward let Bella off to go and make that mistake in the first place, so that she knows what her real choice is :p

Eclipse is way way better than New Moon. There are more actions and we get to see the past of two other Cullen members. I wonder how Alice became a vampire? Wait, let me try to wiki that.

Interesting fact about the Twillight Saga and me:

1. I never even liked the first one. To me, it was draggy and ridiculous. The whole new concept of vampirism (is there such a word) did not work for me the first time.

2. I hated the sequel - New Moon even more, and yet I am addicted to watch what happens next to Bella & Edward, so I watched Eclipse and can't wait to catch the forth installment.

3. I am undeniably in love with Edward (macam dialog Bella). Althought I can't say the same thing for Bella. I just don't get the idea of not showing affection thingy (I know I have this penyakit too sometimes). Edward yang hantu tu pun lebih bersemangat.

4. As I was changing my bag to go and watch Eclipse, I found the ticket to New Moon that is still in my keep. 1st December 2009 was when I watched New Moon with my Vampire fan friends.

If you're not a fan of lovey dovey movie like me, better not watch it. You might vomit from so much affection shown by a bunch of teenagers~

oOoOOoOooOoOoo OMG!

2010-07-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

It has been a BUSY WEEK but I finally finished one big project! Four more to go! *sigh*

I was just doing some finishing touch last Thursday when I received the phone call, "Hey~ I've got a free ticket to Usher's concert, do you want to go?"

I was contemplating to go because I was planning to spend time with Mr. T that day. (I plan to spend time with Mr. T everyday huu~)

To go or not to go?

Usher's first ever concert in Malaysia vs. Spending time with Mr. T ... hmm... how can I choose?!

So, to make sure my first plan still goes as plan, I had a very early dinner with Mr. T and then went to Usher's concert with my colleagues. It was one of those experience I wouldn't want to miss out yet.

Another reason I hesitated to go is that I don't really like to go to concert except for Istana Budaya because I ~~am a control freak~~ was scared if it gets out of control. And the fact that I only managed to memorized two of his songs at the very last minute did not give any encouragement either. How was I suppose to join the crowd with only two songs in my head? I've heard most of his songs but never did I memorize any.

Honestly I'm not really a big fan of Usher. Not that I don't like him, I like his music, but I am not just into him.

Nontheless, Usher gave a very SEXY performance indeed. Especially the move with the mic pole! I wasn't expecting it here in Malaysia but what the heck, everyone was in a euphoria when he did that. Ahahaha...

The crowd was great, I caught a glimpse of Anuar Zain & Muhkriz Mahathir at the event. I'm sure there's a lot others but I couldn't keep my eyes of Usher (ooopsss!)

Now I cannot get the OMG song out of my head for the past two days!

Even when I had my project finale last night and we had Shakira's song played all night for it, could not help me erase OMG out of my head.

This project would be the last of its kind for me after six years but I had a wonderful time.

There were some set backs from two specifically negative people who I can just !#$%^& at but the rest was just great!

I finished closing the event around 2am, and was only able to sleep at 4am.

But an unfortunate event happened today, I was suppose to be at a best friend's wedding today, I've packed my to-go bag and iron the dress to go, but I did not wake on time to catch the flight @_@

I blacked out. I seriously did.

Here I was (after watching America's Next Top Model) thought that I can be on the go anytime.

I'm so sorry dear! I am truly madly deeply sorry! I will try to make it up to you!

How I wish I was some superwoman, but I'm not : (

How I sometimes wish~

2010-07-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

I am not wishing for the stars, I just wish...

I have the power of strength and speed.
I have tons of work to be done and my lack of energy and speed is killing me. At first I thought that when my current project ends middle of July, I can sit back and relax. But unfortunately, I have just gotten a new assignment which ends in October @_@

I have lots and lots of money.
I want to do a lot of things in life, and since I am not a millionaire, some things just have to be put aside and focus on the most important things first.

I have a car.
I don't like to drive. I don't want the hassle of paying for a car or diesel. But I sometimes wish I have my own ride to go around and do my errands.

Now that my old housemates are not here, I am very dependable on Mr. T and poor him since his house is at the other end of town. *sigh*

How I wish...

Ella in Istana Budaya~

2010-07-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

It was exactly one year after Anuar Zain's concert in Istana Budaya last year that I went to watch Ella's performance there two days ago. I'm so glad I have this blog to record it.

It was somewhat an unplanned decision, but I'm glad I made it. My initial plan was just to accompany two F sisters whom I usually spent time watching movies with, but we were joined by many other girls from the office.

We bought the RM50 ticket but got seated at the RM80 seat out of luck. This is my first time not seating at the ground level hall, I find the view odd, but I got the middle seat so I dare not complain much :)

Ella was just awesome! She has a stamina of a sixteen years old and actually looked like one!

There were 22 songs performed altogether, including four from the ochestra Simfoni Kebangsaan alone. If I'm not mistaken.

I was mesmerized by her voice when she sang Ulik Mayang~. She wore a beautiful orange dress when she sang this.

She had Dato' Ahmad Jais as one of her duet (kasihan dato' ni, he doesn't know how to sang Layar Impian when Ella request him to sang together at the end of the show) and the best part is Awie was one of the performers as well. I just love Awie's voice. Their performance brought tears to my eyes, it was a superb performance! The ticket was just so worth it.

Everyone wanted more! It was fun and the background pictures just bring out good memories.
I remembered when I was three years old when my mother first brought me to see her show. Ella has been in show business for 25 years after all. Awie made a joke about this when he said he used to perform Ella's song at wedding ceremonies before he himself became an artist and Ella was like "Ha?~" ...ahahaha... it's just to show that she has more seniority (or older) than Awie.

I can't get the Baldu Biru song out of my head since.

Mr. T and I sang her songs all the way from office to KLIA the next day. I was surprised at the number of Ella's song that he knew.

Why can't I help myself make the change?

2010-06-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

I love my current job. But this love is about to end because of the ~~bangang~~ restructuring process.

I honestly can't work with someone who has the idealism of someone in the 60's.

By idealism of the 60's, I meant to identify us young executive going into management level as something odd.

Or with someone who cannot work with women without feeling that he is much better than a lady manager.

This is the digital age, I can make things automate via system for you. Stop asking us to check things manually! Do you honestly think that human makes less mistakes than machines?

This just sucks!

I've got several offer to move to a different department, but honestly I think I'm self sabotaging myself with silly mistakes.

It's so hard for me to make the move.

I am very much in love and comfortable where I am right now.

I am scared that if I moved I may not feel the same way again...or IF I don't move, the love will fade away and left me with regrets for not taking the 1st chance I got to make that change.

*sigh* why do good things always have to come to an end?

*sob* *sob*

I guess it's time for Istikharah. Who knows better but Him~

Go and catch the A team!

2010-06-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

This was one of those movies that I did not plan to go to but when I accidentally had to watch it, it turned out that I liked it very much.

I seemed to have encounter this kind of experience more than once for a movie.

The A Team has a good mix of witty jokes, action and story line. It was a satisfactory watch indeed.

And yes, I am into exagerated action film. I'm a big fan of The Matrix and Charlie's Angel. Go figure~
And I am madly in love with Bradley Cooper's smile!

I have been when he was in Alias, then I fall for it again in the movie He's Just Not That Into You, and with Face in the A Team. Renee Zelweger is one lucky gal~

why do I choose to do something I don't even want to do in the first place?

2010-06-23T20:58:00.004+08:00

Life is a mystery.

I don't want that job, but here I am preparing and going for the interview.

I don't want to move out, but here I am looking at room/apartment to rent adv and encouraging my roomate to go look for a new house for us. Actually, I meant it for her to look for a new place for herself, but I don't know why I couldn't say NO when she ask me to move in with her. What if she was just saying it and wasn't meaning it like me? Why am I not feeling any pain in this statement? hehehe....

I don't want to go late to work, but here I am still in bed at 8am.

I don't want to gain weight, but I can't help myself from having nasi lemak for breakfast.

I don't want to call Mr. T all the time as I want to give him space and make me look more mucha macho, but here I am dialing his number on my iPhone.

Why on earth do we do things we don't actually want to do?
Apart from succumbing to the temptation of the WHAT IF?s, life is still a mystery in so many ways.

Mak's birthday gift~

2010-06-19T00:33:00.001+08:00

I have yet to decide on the half done design for this blog, but what the heck, today's entry is about celebrating my mother's birthday.

Mak's birthday is exactly one month after Mr. T's.

Honestly, I ran out of ideas as to what to give her this year. I've bought her new clothes and make up earlier this year for Mother's Day, and she already have a few very expensive handbags and she already have enough shoes (my mother is no shoe fan, she only wear one or two at a time which is such a pitty since she has very nice legs which I did not inherit huu~)

So finally, I decided to spend time with her as her birthday gift. Luckily my little sister was able to join us as well.

We went for a fish spa session, window shopping and finally had our tea time at Baskin Robbins. I was hoping to take a walk at the beach, but with the scorching weather, shopping complexes seemed more of a good idea and besides, my mother and me, we're not into nature that much huhuhu...

It is not often that I get to spend time with her lately but I'm glad I get to take some time off to spend with her on her birthday.

I love you Mak! Thank you for all the sacrifices and time spent bringing me up. May we have many more wonderful years together~

I couldn't resist posting this picture of my sister bracing my mother for support as she couldn't fight the ticklish feeling when the fishes attacked her feet. Comel la adik ni dan mak sungguh sabar hehehe~

half done~

2010-06-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

Honestly I wanted to play with the new blogger template a few days ago, but unfortunately, I had to stop and get back to some pending work.

So that's why the look is half done. Luckily I'm not a part time plastic surgeon, matilah cacat patient ku~

Kau pergi jua~

2010-05-31T20:40:00.002+08:00

I was watching The Prince of Persia when I received an sms from Ay (one of my ex-housemates).

The sms reads, "Cik Kopi, Ay ni, nak bagitahu Az dah takder."

I was reading the sms when at the same time ~~awing~~ Prince Darstan ~~who~~ was jumping from one roof to another , so my reply to her was, "Tak ada?"

Then a minute later it occured to me what she meant : (

Az has not been feeling well eversince we met six years ago, she was always saying that she might not leave long enough to be fourty. I didn't believe her.

If you had known her, you would not have guessed that she has been diagnosed with a severe sickness. It's a type of hepatitis and her liver is no longer functioning well. She needs to see the doctor at least once a week. I remember I use to accompany her to soak her swelling feet in a warm bucket of water at the back balkony. Our house has a view of KLCC closed up back there.

She was always abundant of joy and always laughing eventho she is constantly worried about her sickness and the money it will cost to cure her.

She's also one of the best cook I have ever known. One Ramadhan, she cooked sahur for us for the whole month.She keeps her schedule full and was never afraid to try new things.Her live was never boring.

I'm also glad she got married to the cab driver as she has always dreamed to be a wife.

She contacted me in March to borrow some money and I said, since it was such a small amount, I don't mind giving it to her. I wanted to see her then but she said that she might only be available somewhere in October since she plan to pay me back then. Yes, she is also stubborn.

She passed away at 3pm today, and she is only 30 years old this year.

Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun~

Al-Fatihah to Az, may she rest in peace.

@_@

Desperate Hommies No More~

2010-05-28T12:28:00.004+08:00

There was an old post that I wrote about my desperate housemates,
Who went all out to find their soulmates.

(Wow, pantun dua kerat)

Today is the last of the desperate hommies being desperately single. All of them have gotten married, and Ar has just gave birth to a cute baby girl a few weeks ago.

Many things has changed since last year. I am now home alone putting down some sketches to redesign the living room (since I think I'll be here another year or so *nanges*), while waiting to go to the wedding.

Anyway, back to the topic, today is Al's big day!

It came as quite a rush as they only decided to get married about 5 months ago, and has thrive thru many challenges to make this happen.

Financial challenges to be exact. It's ok, I am a part time along, I can tolong. hahaha...

I don't mind borrowing some money to her (bukan banyak pun) because I know I will get my money back on time. Al is very trustworthy with money. She always remember to pay on time :)

Yes, she is getting married to that guy who always makes her cry. He still does, and I don't know why.

But I wish her all the happiness in the world and may she be blessed with lots of beautiful children. She always wanted to have a dozen of them :)

I just love this doll from Precious Thots but none of my friends wanted me to buy it for them : (

No patung they said~

Well, no more desperate hommies, how I'll sure to miss them.

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Mr. T's Birthday Celebration~

2010-05-21T15:13:00.007+08:00

This is a berbunga riang entry which I wanted to post 5 days ago, but had not gotten the time nor space to do it.

It was on one fine weekend, I had a bowling tournament in the morning and won a prize! First time that I won any prize since I played bowling, I scored top 10 for the women's league, so it should go into this post as a memoir. hehehe...

Mr. T picked me up for lunch at noon, we both wore green so it was a Green Day for us.

Where did we head to?

Fullhouse Lifestyle Store & Cafe.

For those who had never been there, it is a very nice place to dine with beautiful white decor, similiar to the Korean Fullhouse drama's setting.

The food has a fusion taste, and for those with Asean taste buds, you might find some of the menu odd.

I had the Tutty Frutty Fish on my first visit there and find it a blast, but when I tried to have it on the second go, it was a no go. I can only enjoy it once, the second time I found it to be too sweet for my liking. So, when I brought Mr. T there (my 2nd visit there on the same week, matilah waiter tu mesti ingat saya kemaruk nak ke sana saja) we had a lunch set meal.

Mr. T with the Carbonara Spagetthi Set Meal.

Me with the tantalizing mushroom soup.

I had the Wok Sear Chicken Chop for my main meal.

Yummy~

The service here is very fast, so we only spend about 30-40 minutes here. We even browsed through the shop when we finished our lunch. Non of the baju fits me ok. I should have had salad instead :p

After that was a ride to Maxis center and I got myself a new IPhone 3Gs :)

What a wonderful day, thank you Mr. T for spending time with me eventho you had that flu.

Here's my gift to Mr. T - Do you want to know a secret? ;)

You already know the answer, dear~

Have a wonderful year ahead, and may Allah bless you always, luv :*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. T

Finally some me time!

2010-05-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

Owh, how long have I craved for some time out. I just love my me time. Even when I was so much younger, I would find a spot to spend only with myself. Reading Enid Blyton's books while eating sandwich or cekodok. How I missed those days :)

I do want to write about my childhood, but today is not the day yet.

This few weeks have been a messed!

I need a few more weeks to go to settle things up and finally maybe it's time to think of moving on.

The Dilemma
I love my job so much, that's the truth. No matter how much I complaint at times, at the end of the day, I have to admit that I love doing what I currently do.

That is why I have decline a few job promotion (one that I regret) and feels reluctant to apply for new post before.

The Incident
But this few weeks, something has made me think maybe it's time for a change when there was a few incidents where some colleagues calling me "akak". Seriously rasa macam nak pitam at first.

You see, I'm so used to be told numerous time that I look younger than my age (matilah perasan dan tak boleh terima kenyataan nih), and I used to be the youngest executive among all.

And then, when I stopped being the youngest, people still don't call me akak, because I look like adik!

To respond, "How dare you call me akak?" is totally irrational, as I sometimes refer to myself as akak to those younger than me, but these kids nowadays looked so much mature (not older) than I used to when I was their age, so I was surprised to be called akak by someone who looks mature.

I did some checking and yes, they are 22-23 years old and have just graduated from Universities. No wonder they call me akak. But seriously, some of them looked like a makcik and called me akak, tu yang akak tak boleh terima tu dik oi! Cuba nampak muda sikit!

This has trigger my survivor instinct that I need to move up as soon as possible. I'm getting older and doing the same thing for some time already.

Trauma sebentar. Irrational terus jadinya.

The Aftermath
Not looking my age (read: I look younger) has its disadvantages.

I don't want to rush to the top of the game, that was never my plan. I just want big bucks $_$

I have received a few offers a few days ago and honestly I'm quite happy and am anticipating for the new challenge. I guess I'm quite ready to accept it if it comes this time around.

Unfortunately for me, I received a call today that some of the top management are having trouble giving me the promotion as some said, "What, she's too young" or "Cik Kopi? I think she's cute, but can she manage?"

Hello! Please don't let my looks deceive you. I am very strict and I have worked in a management post for 5 years. I managed several staff directly under me and manage 3 types of different businesses. I have my charming side and I have my singa (read: lioness) side, you better make sure you meet with the charming side only as my singa side has brought a few macho guys down to tears before. I am very capable at doing my job.

Anyway~ I guess rezeki is not on my side yet. Maybe its a silver ligning that Allah is giving me a chance to stay at what I enjoy doing.

Who knows, maybe the right one for me is just around the corner?

I like to be highly paid and underwork (responsibility wise I mean), and who doesn't, right? It gets you to sleep better at night :)

I've got so many things to write in here but I don't have the time nor energy!

2010-05-12T19:00:00.001+08:00

Owh how fast time flies. It's just a few days away from Mr. T's birthday. I hope nothing will make me cry on that day again this year.

Kopi atau milo ais?

This picture was taken a few days ago when Mr. T & I drive thru Mc Donalds for a quick bite from the airport. I was so surprised that Mr. T ordered coffee. Usually, he's the one drinking ice milo while I choose coffee. Ini terbalik pula as I had a craved for milo that day :)

Finding myself the right pair of jeans~

2010-05-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

I decided to went straight home to my hometown since I had some meetings outside of KL to attend to nearby.

Guess what I forgot to pack with me on that trip?

My one and ONLY at the moment best fitted jeans!

I knew that I don't have any jeans that I can fit into at home. Ye la, I used to be size 26 and 27 (itupun longgar kat pinggang), now? Dah masuk 30an okeh! I told you I've put on 8 kilos from last year *nanges*

I asked my parents to accompany for my jeans shopping since my dad has a good sense at buying stuff, plus the fact that I don't drive.

I tried one jeans after another. Tak ada yang nicely fitted ok, semua ketat kat perut.

Then I was given size 32! My mom nearly burst into tears, my dad walked out of the shop.

I was left there with the salesgirl.Even she was on the verge of giving up on me (org makan gaji macam ni la).

Then came her sales manager. I was browsing through the store on my own and I drag my shocked stricken mom to move along with me, when she came in and let me try a few other cut in size 31.

Hey~ it fits! After 13th try, I finally found the one.

Straight cut Mustang jeans. I've never worn that brand before, but what the heck, this looks good on me and comfy.

My dad worked me out over the weekend (sebab dia tak puas hati anak dia dah gemok kat perut saja) and that jeans is now too loose for comfit after only 5 days, so I went back to my size 29 jeans with ease.

But I'm going to keep that jeans for later use, in case I put on any more kilos again, then I don't have to go thru another hassle of finding the right jeans for me. It's like a traumatic tragedy tau, I don't think I can put my mom thru it ever again.

I seriouly need to loose weight! Or else I need to put my other jeans for yard sale by end of this year to pay for my slimming treatment!

*sigh*

He never lets me drive his Mercedes~

2010-04-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

Me: Mr. T let's me drive his Jazz home from work to improve my driving skills.

Dad: Really? That's great. Maybe we should rent a car like kancil for you to practise on your driving. Lots of practise will improve your driving skills. With different cars you will have different experience.

Me: But I've already driven a kancil, myvi, kelisa, wira bla bla bla... If you want to rent a car for me to practise, can I have a bigger ~~an expensive~~ car?

Dad: We'll see what they have at the car rental center. If you've never driven a Mercedes, then you wouldn't know the ultimate satisfaction of driving a car. The experience is totally different. *smiling with satisfaction*

Me: Really? Can I drive your car?

Dad: No hehehe...

Me: Please please, lets go to a clear area and I want to test drive your car. You don't have to worry, I'll let you guide me.

Dad: No, I don't think its a good idea.

Me: Don't worry, dad, you can have confidence in me. I no longer lack focus. *smiling sweetly*

Dad: Errmm...

Me: Please please please *cute panda eyes*

Dad: No.

Me: Please please please (close to throwing a tantrum)

Dad: No.

Me: (Stop to think)

Dad: ....

Me: Are you sure you don't want me to help you drive the car home?

Dad: No

Me: Yeay!

Dad: Eh, yes, eh no no no...you cannot drive this car.

Me: *sulk*

Dad: *buat tak tahu*

*sigh*

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I lost my mobile phone~

2010-04-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

I was in a cab from a shopping spree ~~that I was force to go~~. I was sleepy (lack of focus), and it was getting dark, my parents were smsing me with a riddle and I was smsing Mr. T to help me solve the riddle.

I finally reach my destination, paid the cab and got out of it, went straight up the stairs to perform my Maghrib prayer when I suddenly realize my Nokia is no where in sight. I search high and low, retraced my steps, called from another phone and I still couldn't find it.

The line was dead.

It took me a whole 30 minutes to realize that I lost my Nokia. Why didn't the cab driver return it back to me?

Pencurik!

*sigh* I seldom lost anything so precious, this is the first time. It was a gift from someone whom I felt reluctant to accept in the first place. But I've been using it for awhile and have grown fond of it.

I lost all the pictures, recipes and notes saved in the phone : (

But worst of all, I can't stop my aunt and her family to nag nag nag, since this all happened when I was at their place. Bising saja.

Maybe there's a hikmah.

Dear Mr. T, I need a new phone, please @_@

I've got my eyes on you~

2010-04-16T16:53:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to get my hands on you too ;)

Brown on the outside~

Pink on the inside ;)

I lost 2kg in 2 days~

2010-04-09T22:19:00.001+08:00

(No, this is not a diet tip post, it's just me whinning)

I find it so hard to loose any weight at this age. I am over 25 but have many more ~~months~~ years to go before 30, but I feel that my metabolisme is already running like a 40 year old woman. I put on 8 kilos from last year alone!

I use to have a superb metabolisme, I would have meals with rice 5 times a day and did not even get over 35kg. Yes yes, a bit on the extra skinny side, but luckily my curve (ada ke) saved me from being an Olive (referring to Popeye's lifetime partner - were they ever married? I can't remember)

I can fit into Xs and extra skinny jeans with just one shot.

Those were the days.

But today, I lost 1.5kg, which is considered a big progress as to my 0.3kg to nearly none progress over the pass few weeks.

How did I lost it? I simply lost my appetite for dinner for 2 consecutive nights.

Why did I loose my appetite?

Mr. T (the love of my life) had to go to KB for an assignment and instead of spending 1 night, he had to stay for 2 to complete the task. I missed him like crazy la!

Honestly, I don't like the fact that anything I do is due to someone else and not myself, but I just couldn't help it. I am so amazed.

I don't think that I can celebrate loosing that 1.5kg yet.

Mr. T just got back today and we had an early dinner together at PappaRich, and I think my 1.5kg has just came back huu~

Kopi and roti anyone?

Tips to stay calm when situation goes bad~

2010-04-02T18:37:00.002+08:00

This morning, I lost my temper over something very simple. Panas satu badan. Later it made me very upset @_@

So I started to Google for some answers on how to stay calm under presure, and one of the best tips I got is from http://www.lifeoptimizer.org/. It is not a new article, but I find the article interesting and easy enough to apply. We sometimes forget the simplest thing.

Here are the list of things you can do to stay calm when situation goes bad:
1- Take a deep breath. (inhale, exhale)

2- Do nothing for 5 minutes. (I like - I can go a full 50 minutes doing nothing)

3- Take a nap. (I took a nap before lunch this afternoon)

4- Take a shower.

5- Listen to comforting music.

6- Listen to natural sounds.

7- Play music. (I think I would need to avoid this since it may cause stress to others ;p)

8- Share to a positive friend. (I have plenty of these)

9- Meditate. (huh? My mind cannot keep quiet unless I'm sleeping)

10- Ask “What’s the next action?” and focus on only that one thing.

11- Go to nature (mountain, beach, etc.). (Broga hills, here I come)

12- Ride a bike.

13- Talk about other topics. (I have plenty of topics :) )

14- Drink a bottle of water.

15- Play games (just for a while!).

16- Go eat with someone who is not part of the situation. (Mr. T always makes my stress goes away, I'll have to go eat with him ~~or eat him nyum nyum~~)

17- Exercise. (terus berlari setempat)

18- Read spiritual texts. (baru habis baca ceramah ugama dari Ustaz Zaharudin dan terus rasa enlighten)

19- Listen to spiritual audio programs.

20- Unplug the Internet. (how can this be a cure?)

21- Take a cup of coffee. (coffee okay, not tea! yeay!)

22- Say to yourself, “This situation is not as bad as it looks. Many people have handled situations worse than this successfully.”

23- Be grateful for what you still have (instead of looking at what you don’t have). (alhamdulillah~)

24- Be grateful for what you can learn from the situation.

25- Take a walk around a park.

26- Smile.

AND best of all, I have booked myself a spa session this weekend - Finally! :)

Roti bakar cicah kopi~

2010-04-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

Pada hari hujan seperti ni, makan roti bakar disapu butter dengan sechawan kopi sungguh menyelerakan~

Dah la saya asyik minum milo saja dua tiga menjak ni sebab perut asyik lapar. Sungguh tak calming!

Talk about my two choices of drinks, lately I crave for Coke too.

Takkan nak ubah tajuk jadi Kopi, Milo atau Coke pula kan?

Hmm...it must be because I'm too stress at work. I tend to self distruct under pressure. I need something to calm me down!

Work is soooooo stressfull lately. No directions, no guidance. This people are draining my creativity to zero. I hope I don't ran out dancing like a mad hatter soon~

Owh before I forgot - I finally got to watch Alice in Wonderland in 3D with Mr. T yesterday :)

FINALLY! I've been waiting since the first day tau. I nearly gone mad with anticipation!

Apakan daya, kita manusia hanya mampu merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan.

Hey~ they said that tea has a calming affect. I need to be calm right now.

Owh Mr. Hatter, do you mind if I join you for tea?

Curiousity killed the cat~

2010-03-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

I sometimes wonder why I cannot help myself from asking questions I do NOT want to know the answers to?

For instance, I know a friend is bleeding from a heartbreak that ache so much she just wants to migrate to Australia, but I had to ask, "How are you today?"

The answer was too much to bear by my goodself of course. I never meant to pry.

Everytime this happens, I made a promise to myself, never to ask questions when I don't want to know the answer, unless it was by accident of course.

But old habits are hard to kill. I kept making the same mistake over and over again.

Now I'm left hanging, trying to save myself from drowning in sorrow~

Silver Lining~

2010-03-12T20:47:00.003+08:00

The other day I was complaining about feeling down.

I had the cure given to me right on the very next day~

The yearly appraisal has finally came up, and I passed with flying colours! (berapa lama daa tak guna perumpamaan ni? klasik lak rasa).

Owh~ This means more bonus for me hohoho~ $_$

Alhamdulillah~

Although I was a bit shocked with the result, but success had never tasted better, especially when you have gone thru the bitterness.

Eventho some say that too much happiness is never good for you, I just want to cherrish this moment and be happy. happy, happy.

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Ups and downs~

2010-03-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

Baby are you down down down down down?

Yes, I'm feeling so DOWN!

I have no idea why~

Yesterday, there, I was feeling on top of the world, and yet today, everything seems to be tumbling down.

I hate hate hate being around negative people, they just has this effect on me.

Anyway, the only good thing that happened today was Mr. T brought me to lunch today. I have no idea why, but it seemed so sweet and him dressing up makes me flutter~ *blushed*

But so far, the day did not turn out to be so good, with bad news all around~ *sigh*

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Advantages of loosing weight~

2010-03-04T18:07:00.005+08:00

Loosing weight is part of my 2010 resolution.

I realized that it is not realistic to go below 50kg back to my old weight of 46kg , therefore instead of wanting to loose 8kg, I plan to target my weight to 50kg by the end of this year instead.

Ample time?

That's what I thought so too, but as off March I have managed to gained 1.5kg and bring it back down by 2kg. So, in actual, I only managed to loose 0.5kg in 2 months!

Looking at this result, I have deviced a plan to ensure I reach my goal :

1. I cut my meals to half, and have a snack in between meals.
2. I plan to start cooking again.This time, the recipes will be healthy and low callories~
3. To get rid of the lemak:

do Flat Tummy Exercise once a week and move on to twice a week( I have manage to stick with this so far, and yes, it is very very hard, therefore I have decided that thrice a week is very farfetched hahaha...)
have a go with the Ogawa Ezshape 15 minutes a day, 3 times a week (yes, the machine has been left to rust for so long, it is time to make full use of it)
join my friends for their dance session once a week.

Why do I need to loose weight?

I need to get rid of the fat in my ~~stomach~~ liver which has caused a series of aches and jeopordizing my health;

I want to avoid hearing people say that I have gained weight, it's traumatizing (is there such a word?)

And I have to get back into those dresses, blouse and suits that is now hanging in my closet or else I need to have a yard sale next year huu~

Besides, there are many other advantages to loose weight.

Wish me luck!

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Sometimes you say things you don't actually mean~

2010-02-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

I do that a lot when I'm angry.

When I am angry with a certain someone, I wished they could just dissappear from my life including those that I actually care about. Although in actual fact, I would go insane if those who I love ever left me.

Like my brother and sister, they usually gets on my nerve. Heck, siblings usually do that to you sometimes, just because they could. You love them too much to ever actually let them go ~~to hell~~.I know some couldn't care less about their siblings, but in my case that is, I love my siblings a lot.

But when they get on my nerve (repeating the same phrase) or gets me upset, those words that I do not mean sometimes slip my mind and regretfully my mouth as well.

I don't actually mean it all the time (well maybe some time).

But the truth is I would never bear to see them go.

I cried like mad when my sister had to stay in her in laws for the first two days of raya right in front of my borther in law. Luckily my BIL didn't cry as well :p

Then another time I cried like crazy was when my brother asked whether I was ok for him to have a relationship with an older woman (only 2 years older, not much, and I have no idea why I'm making such a fuss over a small age gap).

I was just not ready to say ok to both situation where I may part with my brother and sister or share a part of them with someone else.

It seems that only yesterday they were little babies and were looking up to me to play with them or keep them company. Now, I felt that they won't need me for that anymore when the truth is they will always do. This is where my heart and mind gives two different opinion. It's the heart that has the hard time letting them go, the mind was quite glad that things turn out for the best.

That's why I sometimes say things that I don't actually mean. I have a conflict in me :p

Or is it my hormones? :p (I can see my sister rolling her eyes at me blaming the hormones again)

Nontheless (my brain taking over again), I am glad that I have had the chance to spend time with them during those growing up moments and part of them are exactly how I mould them to be (hahaha...I have brainwashed them well), and I do hope I can overcome my bad temper before anything bad come out of it.

Dear Brother & Sister of mine,

I only scoulded you over the years because I love you. I still do love you, so sometimes I might scold you again.

Please don't take all the mean things I say to heart, I was just angry. But please take note of the mentally stable advise I have given you all these years, because my mind works sometimes when I'm angry as well.

Love,
Big Sis

xoxo-

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Negative people~

2010-02-27T13:12:00.001+08:00

Six years ago when I had just started working in my previous company, I was stuck with a woman who is so beautiful but is such a ~~bitch~~ negative person, for more than a year.

She complaints about everything and never felt happy with her achievements. She has many talents and can make people turn their head twice when she passes by, but unfortunately for her, all that was not enough.

And she felt jealous of me and went to a lot of effort to see that I fail in life. She failed of course, I have no interest in letting such things let me down. But there was an impact and I learn my lesson to make sure I stay as far away from that kind of person since I am such a nice person and was very bad at catfight ;p

End of last year, I got a new roomate as my old one moved to her hometown. She has nearly the same attitude as the negative woman I left years ago. She is beautiful, but she can never take any advise, she complaints almost everyday about her life, and she cannot be happy when other people are happy.

Luckily this new roomie can fake a smile whenever needed (I was deceived by this the first time we met!) so that we can feel less annoyed and she feels nothing againts me, but still, she's not someone I'm happy to meet at the end of the day.

It's tiring having to handle this emotionally crippled people. They feel like they are drowning in their misery and would love to drag everyone along with them. I've dropped a lot of hints telling her not to complaint so much.

I can't wait for her to move out as she constantly complaints about the house as well ;p

I want a flat tummy!

2010-02-17T10:23:00.002+08:00

I want to try these 2 killer moves for a month a see how it goes :) from Yahoo! Shine

Let see if I can loose those kilos~

Saya sangat takot bila membaca artikel ini yang di emailkan kepada saya~

2010-02-07T22:37:00.001+08:00

Sekadar Peringatan.

Sabda Rasulullah:

"Kiamat itu ada dua... Kiamat Sugra (Kecil) dan Kiamat Qubra (Besar)... Kiamat Sugra ialah Kiamat dimuka bumi sahaja diakhir zaman... Akan masih ada segolongan kecil yang hidup untuk pembiakan umat baru yang akan bertemu Nabi Isa A.S... Manakala Kiamat Qubra ialah Kiamat yang seluruh alam semesta dan galaksi hancur... Tiada lagi manusia yang hidup, dan tiada lagi bumi..."

"Umatku ada dimuka bumi ini selama 1,500 tahun lamanya... Sebelum terjadinya Kiamat Qubra, akan tiba Kiamat Sugra... Sebelum datangnya Kiamat Sugra, akan ada tanda-tandanya... Begitu juga sebelum tibanya Kiamat Qubra..."

Ayat al-Quran:

"Tidakkah kamu (manusia) melihat bagaimana Allah menghapuskan kaum terdahulu sebelum kamu, sedangkan mereka (kaum terdahulu) dari tamadun yang hebat, membina bangunan dari tembok-tembok kukuh..."

"Apabila manusia terlalu banyak melakukan kerosakan dimuka bumi ini, Allah akan perintahkan bumi bergoncang, gunung memuntahkan isinya, langit menurunkan hujan, sehingga mereka (manusia) menjadi hancur-sehancurnya... Dan Allah akan menggantikan mereka dengan umat yang baru..."

Ust.Harun Din dlm ceramah dia, ada membaca sebuah artikel yg menceritakan bahawa dunia ni dah nak kiamat ... Planet Marikh (planet ke-4 dan paling dekat dengan bumi) telah mengalami pusingan yang terbalik pada bulan Sept 2008 lepas.. Maknanya, planet yg dekat dgnnya jugak (bumi la) akan bertukar arah pergerakan dia.. Maka pada saat tu akan terjadi kejadian matahari tenggelam sebelah timur...

Penjelasan Saintifik Bagaimana Ia Berlaku:

Untuk pengetahuan semua, sebuah planet bernama Nibiru atau planet X (oleh NASA) sedang melengkapkan putaran orbitnya yang berlaku setiap 3600 tahun.. Planet ini 100 kali ganda besar bumi dan sama besar dengan planet Jupiter (Musytari). Dijangkakan pada 21/12/2012 planet ini akan memberi kesan paling dahsyat kepada bumi dengan memutarkan kutub-kutub ke kedudukan terbalik (polar shifting) yang dijangkakan oleh NASA.

Pada bulan Mei 2009 lalu Planet X berwarna merah jelas kelihatan oleh semua penduduk bumi selama sebulan antara jam 1am - 3am...

Peristiwa ini seperti yang pernah berlaku semasa banjir besar zaman Nabi Nuh AS dahulu.. Planet ini tak menghentam bumi tapi tarikan gravitinya yang sangat kuat akan mengganggu bumi... Ia hanya akan lalu diantara bumi dan matahari dimana kecerahannya berwarna kemerah-merahan seakan-akan anak matahari..

(Tanda tibanya kiamat kecil objek merah di langit kelihatan)...

Amerika Syarikat dan negara barat lain sedang sibuk membuat persiapan menghadapi keadaan ini dengan membina beberapa penempatan sementara di banjaran-banjaran gunung lengkap dengan makanan yang mampu bertahan 3 tahun kerana dianggarkan 2/3 penduduk bumi ini akan lenyap...

Di norway misalnya mereka membina sebuah gudang menyimpan segala biji benih di sebuah bukit lengkap dengan ciri-ciri keselamatan dan dari ancaman bencana..

(Rujuk paper bulan Februari 2008, kosmo, Berita Harian dan lain-lain)

Benarlah sabda RASULULLAH

Satu hari nanti bumi akan hancur dan ditenggelami air selama 40 hari, dan satu zaman baru muncul dipanggil back to ancient berlaku dimana segala teknologi pupus dan manusia akan kembali seperti zaman purba, berperang dengan pedang cara kuno...

Jadi bersedialah kita umat Islam...ALLAHHU AKBAR..!!

Kajian... (ALLAH Maha Mengetahui dan mahu kita berfikir..)

a) Mengikut hadith umat Rasulullah akan hidup selama 1500 tahun... Sekarang sudah 1440 = 426 12 tahun hijrah.... Daripada ini kita ketahui kita akan bertahan dalam masa 61 tahun lagi..

Jikalau ini benar, Alam akan kiamat (Besar) pada tahun 2066...

b) Saintis telah menjumpai sebuah planet yang lebih kecil daripada bumi yang menghala ke bumi.. Ia telah dianggarkan bahawa planet itu akan melanggar bumi pada tahun 2014.

Namun, Amerika telah cuba untuk menukarkan orbitnya dengan menembaknya dengan sebuah roket...

Dan saintis juga telah menjumpai sebuah planet yang jauh lebih besar dari Bumi juga akan menghentam bumi dalam masa 60 tahun lagi...

Jikalau ini benar, dunia akan musnah pada tahun 2065.....

c) Dan dikatakan kuasa Israel akan mencapai puncaknya pada tahun 2007... Mereka merancang memusnahkan Kaabah pada tahun 2011...

(Meruntuhkan Kaabah mengundang kemurkaan Allah, mungkinlah juga Kiamat Kecil 2012 itu disebabkan kemurkaan Allah)

Dan kuasa Israel akan jatuh semula dalam 14 tahun, iaitu tahun 2022, disebabkan oleh penurunan semula Nabi Isa..... .

Dan hadith mengatakan bahawa Nabi Isa hanya akan hidup selama 40 tahun dan dunia akan kiamat selepas itu..

Jikalau ini benar dunia akan kiamat pada tahun 2062...

Dianggarkan Kiamat Qubra (Besar) Antara Tahun 2062-2066...

Wallahu'alam. .. Semua ini telah dikaji...

Mati itu pasti, hidup, InsyaAllah~ (Laksamana Sunan, watak dari Novel Ramlee Awang Mursyid - Hijab Sang Pencinta)

Kisah makcik tempe di malam hari~

2010-02-07T00:35:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a big day for me. I had tons of work to be done while at the same time I need to host the office dinner party.

It seemed that this has been a yearly event - hosting the dinner party. Honestly, the part I like most about hosting an event is the make up and dress up part :)

I've already made the arrangement for a ride home since the event will last till midnight and Mr. T has a case to attend, when surprisingly I received a phone call from Mr. T that afternoon that he has cancelled his evening appointment and will be able to send me home after the party.

Yeay! (Membuat tarian kegembiraan di dalam hati)

Mr. T promised to tell me a story ("Cerita tentang makcik tempe katanya") when I was free but since I was so busy during the day, the story was told on the way home just after the party.

Ceritanya berbunyi begini (Mind my BM, banyak sangat belajar dari buku komik Doraemon, inilah hasilnya):

Tersebut alkisah seorang makcik yang kerjanya membuat dan menjual tempe. Makcik ini hidupnya sederhana dan dia menyara hidup sepenuhnya dengan hasil menjual tempe di sebuah pasar.

Pada suatu hari, beliau mendapati tempe untuk dijual pada hari berikutnya masih mentah sedangkan masa untuk ke pasar sudah semakin dekat. Makcik ni berasa pelik maka, dia pun berdoalah kepada Allah selepas beliau selesai mengerjakan solat Subuh agar tempenya masak dengan segera.

Setelah selesai berdoa, makcik ni pun bersiap-siap hendak ke pasar dan dia mendapati tempenya masih tidak masak.

Makcik yang kasihan ini terus-terusan berdoa kepada Allah agar diperkenankan doanya agar tempe nya masak segera, dan doanya berbunyi begini, "Ya Allah, hambamu ini tidak meminta banyak darimu, aku redha diberi kehidupan yang sederhana, hanya ku mohonkan pada mu agar kau percepatkanlah tempe-tempe ni untuk masak agar dapat aku menjualnya dan menjadi rezeki untuk memberi keluargaku makan hari ini"

Oleh kerana hari telah berganjak siang, makcik ini pun bertawakal dan membawa tempe-tempenya ke pasar dengan harapan tempe-tempe tersebut akan masak dalam perjalanan ke sana.

Apabila sampai, sedihlah hati makcik ini bila mendapati tempe-tempenya masih mentah.Makcik ini terus lah berdoa agar tempenya cepat masak. Pelanggan datang silih berganti tetapi tiada siapa yang mahu membeli tempe yang mentah, dan hari mula berganjak ke penghujung waktu perniagaan di pasar tersebut.

Makcik penjual tempe ini merasa risau dan hairan kenapa Allah masih tidak tunaikan permintaannya sedangkan apa yang diminta dirasakan bukanlah sesuatu yang luar biasa.

Di saat makcik ini berasa hampir putus asa, tiba-tiba dia datang seorang pelanggan wanita dalam linkungan lingkungan 50an, "Ada jual tempe mentah tak?"

"Ada, berapa yang puan nak?", sahut makcik penjual tempe dengan perasaan sedikit musykil kerana ada yang mahu membeli tempe mentahnya.

"Berapa yang ada? Saya ambil semua lah", jawab wanita berkenaan.

Alhamdulillah bisik makcik penjual tempe di dalam hati dan membungkuskan kesemua tempenya yang separuh masak tadi ke dalam beg plastik.

"Puan, boleh saya bertanya, kenapa puan hendak membeli tempe mentah?", tanya makcik tempe yang masih dalam kemusykilan.

"Owh~ anak saya baru pergi belajar di luar negara, dia sangat suka tempe. Kalau saya hantar tempe yang dah masak sepenuhnya takot buruk pula bila sampai kepada dia, dengan tempe separuh masak ni, sempatlah tempe ni masak dalam perjalanan dan dapatlah anak saya makan tempe segar", balas wanita tersebut.

Makcik tersebut tersenyum dan bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi.

Barulah beliau faham, Allah tidak makbulkan doanya tadi kerana dia ditakdirkan menjual tempenya yang mentah kepada wanita yang memerlukan tempe tersebut.

Ganjaran yang diberi oleh Allah datang dalam bentuk dan masa yang tidak dijangka, kita perlu sabar dan yakin bahawa Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hambanya.

Ye Mr. T, saya faham moral of this story ^_^

It's like there's a big rock weighing me down~

2010-02-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

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Or is it just me?

Why am I feeling this way?

Because it seems that I have been waiting and anticipating something for so long, I'm feeling less and less excited about it.

Nak jatuh ke arah mana?

2010-01-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

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Mr. T and me always have our meals in his car.

Sometimes we enjoy our early dinner by the lake in the car, or we grab a quick bite on the way. We always have tapau food in the car. Even with that activity, the car is still clean and wangi (where am I going with this? huu~)

Anyway, today I was whining about not having a multihanger in his car to hang the plastic bag of food that we tapau'ed from my favorite stall - Suraya at Kg. Baru.

Me: "Dia~ mana nak letak plastik-plastik ni ye?"
Him: "Letak jerlah kat bawah tu" (Refering to tempat kat tempat letak kaki bawah me)
Me: "Nanti jatuh, pecah pulak plastik ni"
Him:" Kalau dah letak kat bawah tu nak jatuh ke mana lagi?"
Me: "Kalau kereta belok, nanti plastik ni jatuh bergolek pecah, macam mana?"
Him: "Dia~, selalunya jatuh tu, dari atas ke bawah, kalau dah ada kat bawah tu kat mana lagi la nak jatuhnya? Lain la kalau jatuh cinta-yang itu barulah jatuh tu dari bawah ke atas"
Me: "Ha?"
Him: "Ye la, pernah dia dengar orang kata jatuh cinta terasa seperti jatuh tujuh kaki ke bawah tanah? Tak, kan? Selalu orang kata, bila jatuh cinta kita naik ke langit ke sembilan" *wink*
Me: ^_^ all the way home.

Tiba-tiba terasa seperti berada di awan yang kesembilan (cloud nine)

Tapi saya tetap tak letakkan makanan tu kat bawah, nanti pecah plastik tu, sia-sia jer saya pegi tapau bubur nasi tu.

Dia~ saya nak multihanger tu @_@

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